.My Journey towards my Creator.

At Your Feet

2011-09-24T08:57:00.003+08:00

I've been away from you,

once was i sitting at your feet,

listening to all that you say,

feeling your presence all day.

Now that I've grown up,

things have changed and fast.

I can't seem to keep myself,

sitting at the feet i once loved.

The heart of Mary that I've had,

Has far gone long now away.

Martha's heart is what I've caught,

and now I'm tired and lost.

I can't see the joy of living no more.

Work and responsibilities is all i have.

The joy of life has long gone disappeared.

Oh God, I miss sitting at your feet.

I want to put all the trays down,

and just listen and be with You.

But i don't understand at all,

Why I can't do it Oh Lord. .

Are the trays stuck on my hands?

Oh dear God. I want to sit down.

I want to be near, oh so close to You.

I've lost track of my sight, i need You.

Dear God, can you please help this lad?

I am long astray, working like crazy.

I've pleased others more than You.

How can i keep my eyes back to You?

Dear God Dear God. . How i miss you so.

Please take me back, I'm tired and lost.

I want to sit once again at your feet,

And listen to the beauty of your voice.

Dear God. . Please forgive my heart.

For it has began to please others,

And lost sight of your amazing love.

Now my heart is oh so weary and pale. .

Dear God. . I ask for the heart of Mary,

I want to sit at your feet once again,

I want to let go of these trays,

and let the heart of Martha fade away.

God, my God. Please hear my Plea,

Bring me back, Oh God please.

I know only You can save this heart,

This weary, tired and faded heart.

At Your feet, once more I want to sit.

It's All Yours

2011-09-08T09:34:00.003+08:00

God, right now I at a loss,

You know deep within me,

That i have nothing left,

I can't do anything anymore.

I have nothing else. .

I am at the end of my rope,

I slowly realized that. .

I can't do anything anymore.

I have to trust in YOU. .

I have to understand that,

All i really have is YOU. .

Letting go of everything.

God. I need you so much.

I lay it all up on our hands.

Only you can touch this heart.

I know you can take it away.

Take away all the feelings,

That I may keep the gift,

That You have freely given me.

I need Your grace Oh, God.

My heart is all Yours.

Take it and please don't let go.

August 7 2011

2011-08-07T16:57:00.001+08:00

Today... i witnessed a proposal :)

My wonderful friends Sharon & Joseph. ♥

Too Careful

2011-07-26T17:01:00.006+08:00

Yes, I like someone.

Yes, I am paranoid.

Yes, I am thinking too much.

Yes, I am too careful.

I don't regret being like this,

It's keeping me safe,

It's keeping me pure in a way;

It's saving me from serious pain.

Liking someone is wonderful,

Tho it is tough as well.

It should be handled with great care,

Or it'll badly get out of hand.

Feelings taken for granted,

Is a very serious offense;

This is to be taken seriously,

Or it'll create serious mistakes.

I value our friendship so much,

that I make sure my guard is up.

I like him but i've got to be careful;

For as they say, Love is patient indeed.

I like him, I am paranoid.

I am too careful coz I like him.

Got to wait for God's Hand to move,

Coz He indeed is writing my story. :)

Here Am I! Send me.

2011-07-06T05:44:00.003+08:00

God. .

Here Am I! Send me.

Simple words, but powerful.

Taken for granted, but honored.

When the world is falling,

And everyone's hope is fading,

I will still remain and say,

Here Am I! Send me.

When my dreams & hopes,

Are stepped on and destroyed,

I will still believe and say,

Here Am I!Send me.

When all have betrayed me,

And lost all my dear ones,

I will still stand firm and say,

Here Am I! Send me.

I am nothing, but I am here.

You need me not, but I will serve.

You asked whom You shall send,

Here Am I! Send me.

What does it really mean?

2011-07-05T05:38:00.005+08:00

What does it really mean,

When I accept Christ in my life?

What changes can it really do?

What exactly does it do?

I grew up having my life in Him,

Don't really know the other side,

Of not having Him in my life.

But this I clearly know deeply.

That when One has received Him,

All his sins are forgotten.

None of his past can affect him now.

He is given a new clean slate.

Nothing to pay back for,

Nothing to suffer of,

No consequence to face.

It's just plain grace.

It's hard to accept I know.

Living a life full of sin and hatred.

But I myself can't understand,

Why He gave salvation so freely.

Forgiveness given gracefully,

Love given unconditionally,

Hope given whole-heartedly,

Life given in a brand new way.

No matter how others view it,

When encountering Christ,

They are a new being.

Something changes definitely.

Accepting Christ as Savior,

After all those past sins,

Takes away all those sins,

With His sacrificed blood.

Yes, no one can comprehend,

Such grace given to us sinners.

Yes, we don't deserve a bit of it,

But He freely gave it in love. : )

So, what's stopping you from accepting?

When you have nothing to repay.

All you have to do is turn away,

from all your sins and doubts.

It's as easy as that,

and i tell you,

accepting Him?

You won't regret it.

His love is just so amazing,

No more lonely nights,

No more hopeless mornings.

Just plain love and joy. : )

So, what does it really mean?

Accepting Christ in your life,

Reconciles you with Him.

And it's as simple as that : )

Reconciling with Him,

Makes you a new creation,

Old things have passed away,

All things have become new. : )

2 Corinthians 5:17

Calling

2011-07-03T16:34:00.002+08:00

I am born at a perfect time.

Breathed life for a reason.

Stepped out for a purpose.

Living for a calling.

I know I am meant for something,

Something that i can't comprehend.

Something I can't clearly see,

But faithfully can hold onto.

I am called for something great.

Even greater than living itself.

I wasn't born to just survive.

I was called to do something great.

But as i grew up,

The world blinded my vision.

Slowly i forgot that i was called.

Began to live life just to survive.

Living just to survive is just empty.

It's living in void and confusion.

Having no sense of worth,

Having nothing to foresee.

Living life in that way,

Is simply as good as dying already.

Life is nothing but a dead end.

Nothing to see, nothing to do.

Meaningless.

Perfect definition of life survival.

So why live for no reason?

It's better to end it now than suffer.

Just when I was about to give up,

To leave this evil world behind,

A tiny spark of a loving memory,

Enlightened my once dead vision.

The One who called me,

Showed Himself in pure love.

Gave me a hand and lifted me up.

And gave me smile of hope.

He said,

"Don't give up just yet."

"You live for a calling.."

"I am with you, You will not fail."

I am indeed called.

Called for a reason, a purpose.

Called to love & live for Him alone,

And that is my highest calling. :)

The Bridge

2011-05-28T22:23:00.003+08:00

Today I almost lost someone dear,

Because i wanted to run away.

Just when the tough gets going,

I got myself ready to turn away.

I cried drowning on my bed,

Tried to throw every memory away.

Decided to run and turn away,

from this someone dear to me.

But the funniest thing happened. . .

No matter how i let go of the rope,

If he won't let go of his,

the bridge won't fall off at all.

This bridge of friendship that we have,

That i was oh so ready to leave,

Was not destroyed at all,

Just because he hold onto his end.

The fact that he held on,

means there's hope for both.

We can still fix it and put it up,

despite the brokenness it had.

Just when i was about to give up,

He held stronger than before.

Of course he got his help from above,

to strengthen him on the hold.

This is the beauty of friendship,

that is given from above.

When its about to break off,

Strong bonds would not let it go.

God is indeed the maker of all,

He set this bridge for us,

and He is willing to keep it forever,

No matter how much I break it apart.

Thank you my dear best friend,

for not letting go of your end.

It gave so much hope and joy,

That made me hold on once again. :)

Silent Words

2011-03-09T23:06:00.001+08:00

i don't know what to say,

but right now all i can do is cry.

When you needed me the most,

i didn't get to be there.

Such pain you've gone thru,

and yet you thought of me.

I hate you for not telling me a thing,

and i hate myself for not being there.

i hate the fact that i have these rules,

i hate the fact that i didn't get to see,

How much pain you've gone thru,

Just because of some stupid rule.

I wanted to be there for you,

but i wasn't able to be.

You were right in front me,

and i couldn't do a thing.

you were right in front of me,

and i didn't get to see a thing,

i didn't get to see the marks,

that gave you so much pain.

All i could respond was thru tears,

i don't know what to say nor give,

how i wish i can heal your wounds,

or bring back time and give you a hug.

I hate the fact that i wasn't there for you,

i hate the fact that i didn't see a thing.

You've gone thru so much pain,

and no one was there to be with you.

I'm sorry. From the bottom of my heart.

I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry.

I want to say something,

but only tears came out of me.

My Love, My God

2010-12-08T09:37:00.000+08:00

You watched me walk alone,
Never took Your eyes away from me,
You never left me as i walked,
Prepared to catch me if I fall.

My Love, My God.
You never left my side.
Even if I thought you did,
You actually never did.

My Love, My God.
Without you my soul is gone,
Without you my life is a wreck,
Without you I am nothing but dust.

My Love, My God.
I missed you so,
Please walk with me,
Side by side forever.

My Love, My God.
You are my first and my last,
Nothing can be compared,
To You in love.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for painting the stars,
For me to see that you care,
That you are watching over me.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for your smile,
That kept me going in life,
That kept me loved .

My Love, My God.
No one can ever take your place,
You belong in my heart alone,
No one else can be there but You.

My Love, My God.
Change my heart and stay inside,
My soul is thirsty for you,
and my body longs for you.

My Love, My God.
Stay inside me forever,
Till the day I see you face to face,
Please take control of my heart.

My Love, My God.
My emotions are all yours,
My thoughts are all yours,
My choices are all yours.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for taking me back,
To your loving arms,
To your wings of grace.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for loving me so. :)

God, I've changed.

2010-12-01T08:30:00.000+08:00

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I am not the one before,

I've grown up and squandered.

I've lost my faith in you,

And had endless doubts.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I'm not the same as before,

I don't sing from my heart,

I've lost my interest in you,

But my heart needs you so.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I don't do my prayers no more,

I've stopped writing letters for you,

I stopped giving my best,

I've come to the end of my road.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I pray and i pray,

But no answer i can hear,

I know i've brought pain,

Oh God please give me grace.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I'm not the girl you used to know,

I've lost my way,

I am not as innocent as before,

I am filled in filth and dirt.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I loved the world more than you,

MY heart is so thirsty oh God,

Can you still hear me dear God?

Can you see my tears from my heart?

God I've changed,

Can you still accept me?

Coz i just realized i can't live without you.

Little Things

2010-09-01T15:05:00.001+08:00

Verse 1:

It's the little things that counts,

the silent hellos that you give,

the sweet smile that you flash,

the little thoughts that you share.

Chorus:

It's the little things that matter,

that make my life go wonder.

It's the little things that saves me,

from all these craziness around.

Verse 2:

Say my name out right,

it sure gives me a lift.

Look at me and smile,

I'll flash it back with a blush.

Chorus:

It's the little things that matter,

that make my life go wonder.

It's the little things that saves me,

from all these craziness around.

Bridge:

So please,

Don't ignore the little things,

That make you and I go smile

It's a treasure to keep,

that should be kept sweet.

The Point

2010-08-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

I came to the point into which I've accepted that I could never understand God's Ways. I might know it in His perfect timing or will never know about it till the day that i reconcile with Him :)

That's it.

2010-08-02T18:03:00.002+08:00

I've had enough of this.

I know i'm different,

the way i think or express.

I've had enough of this.

Nobody could understand me,

except my family and God.

One or two friends maybe,

but that's it and it ends there.

I'm tired of explaining who I am,

tired of being different.

I've got to blend in and be silent,

and leave my thoughts somewhere else.

I've had enough pains of ignorance,

or misjudgment, of unacceptance.

I am closing my doors of openness,

And let my art express who I am.

Let me close who I am for a year,

All i can do now is listen and be silent.

Give a couple of advices if needed,

but if not, this one must shut up.

I am just so tired of who I am,

But i cannot destroy who I am.

Rather i will adjust and do what i can,

and let God do the rest and the best.

That's it.

It's the end of the rope.

I will keep my thoughts for myself.

It stays that way indefinitely.

I love you, I'm sorry

2010-07-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

I know this ain't right,

This feeling i have for you

I know it's no sin as well,

But why do i feel so wrong?

I feel like i've created a crime,

That i never expected to do.

It's too late to go back right now,

A second chance is no option at all.

I wanted to be there for you,

As you've been there for me.

Thing is you've never let me in,

No matter how hard i've tried

I know this is wrong,

This is my biggest crime i know,

I love you, I'm sorry.

I am letting go.

A mistake

2010-07-28T20:26:00.002+08:00

I like you but i can't love you,

Why must these feelings arise?

I never wanted to end up this way,

But I guess I can't change the facts.

Why does it have to be this way?

To know I've fallen when you faded away.

I didn't know How precious you were,

Till my heart lost sight of you…

I can't stop thinking about,

The times that i was with you.

If only i could erase these mem'ries

Then maybe i could let go.

Thing is I've loved you I'm sorry,

I know it's unfair for you.

Don't worry, I'll keep it all for myself,

I know you'll love someone better than I.

All i could be is a friend,

I know you'll never look back,

It hurts to know it ends up this way,

But hey, it was all a mistake.

Unwanted Feelings

2010-07-28T06:04:00.000+08:00

I haven't spoken with you for awhile,

It's been hard for me after you faded.

You don't know this for I was silent,

Coz I didn't want to be a burden to you.

A friend is all i wanted you to be,

But what can i do right now?

I am only a girl who has emotions n such.

I am so sorry for liking you this way.

I have so many questions i want to ask,

Too many for me to even keep,

I want to ask these things sometime,

But i guess it'll ruin the friendship we have.

Why aren't you talking to me anymore?

What did I ever do that made you stop?

Now that you know me, you don't like it?

I know I'm weird, is too much for you?

All i need is for you to be a friend.

But where are you when i needed you?

YOu only talk to me when i have problems,

When i want to share my happiness with you.

You've changed so much lately,

You said you were busy but now you're not.

I know something changed in you so much,

And it hurts me a lot in silence you know.

I don't want to talk to you about these.

I never wanted to be a burden for you.

I guess this friendship is slowly fading,

And everything is my fault i believe.

I have too many memories with you,

And i can't help but look back.

Too much happiness for me to forget,

But right now they're a pain in my heart.

This stupid feelings i have for you,

Ruined everything that I had with you.

I never wanted to end up this way.

But what could i possibly do?

I want to talk to you right now,

Don't know if i can be happy or not.

I just miss the old times that's for sure,

but i guess you'll never be back so soon.

I believe this is the time for me to say "Goodbye"

For these feelings are not so good anymore.

I've got to move on and leave it behind.

I know it's just friendship for you but not mine.

You may never know why I will fade,

You'll never notice it anyway.

I miss you so much and I don't want to see you,

that's the irony when feelings arise.

My Relationship with My Environment

2010-07-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

The sweet cool breeze of the air

This is what I always look forward to every day.

I am a digital artist and most of my days my computer is what I face.

From time to time I am sucked in into my computer.

Really I feel detached from the world itself.

It’s hard to be sucked in technology,

Sometimes I feel like I lose who and what I am.

But once I open my windows and feel the cool breeze cross through my face,

It wakes me up from this technology illusion I am in.

This sweet cool breeze reminds me that I am alive in the real world,

Breathing, alive and awake.

Honestly, deep within my heart,

I am afraid of losing this cool air I daily enjoy.

I whisper a prayer to God everyday that He will still provide this cool air,

Despite the fact that it is almost ruined by the pollution of the world.

The sweet cool breeze is what I need the most; it’s my treasure,

My fear of losing it provided a way for me to protect it.

As simple as throwing my garbage at the right places,

Or taking care of the plants around my place

Simple as it may seem but I know it creates a change.

I know I’m just a small part of this world,

But I am still a part of this world and I believe change begins,

With me.

Am I pretty?

2010-06-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

Ama, am I pretty?

Ama do you think this dress is pretty?
Yes it is, but the smile that you wear is prettier than that.

Ama do you think this jewelry is pretty?
Yes it is, but the glee in your eyes are prettier than that.

Ama do you think this flower looks pretty?
Yes it is, but your natural look is prettier than that.

Ama do you think this nail polish looks pretty?
Yes it is, but what your hands create are prettier than that.

Ama do you think this cookie I made is pretty?
Yes it is, but your thoughtfulness is prettier than that.

Ama do you think this song is pretty?
Yes it is, but your voice is prettier than that.

Ama do you think this huggable bear is pretty?
Yes it is, but your sweet hugs are prettier than that.

Ama do you think I'm pretty?
No I don't, because you're far more beautiful just to be called pretty. :)

Her

2010-05-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

If I was given a chance to be a wife,

And given a husband who is…

A Nurse or a Doctor,

I would gladly visit his lonely patients,

To Spend time, to listen, to sing for them

Lovely songs that would put them to rest.

A Chef or a Baker,

I would gladly offer my creativity,

Offer some colorful icing designs,

Or even package his creations in delight.

A Musician or a Composer,

I would gladly sing his compositions,

Sing along with him when he needs me,

And brew his coffee when he stays up late.

A Writer or an Editor,

I would gladly offer my illustration skills,

Read his writings no matter what,

And bake a cake for him when he is done.

A Potter or an Artisan

I would gladly watch him work,

Play instrumental music to create a mood,

Then advertise his crafts in whatever way i can.

An Athlete or a Coach

I would gladly watch all his games,

Celebrate his win or not hard work,

And create huge banners in support for him

An Actor or a Director

I would gladly watch his rehearsals,

Patiently wait for him whatever goes,

Then cook Dinner for him every night.

An Artist or Digital Artist

I will stay up late with him,

Do the same thing he loves the most,

And give him a hug when he gets frustrated.

Whoever my husband is to be,

I want to be his artist in every way,

Support him in his plans for life,

And never leave his side no matter what.

The bottom line of this is,

I want to be just like my mother. :)

A very loving mother of four,

A supportive wife to my only father.

I can't help but be inspired

With the way she lived her life,

In total support to my father,

No matter what happened she was there.

This poem is for her,

To let her see what she has implanted in me,

She has always been an awesome mother,

And the greatest example of what a wife should be.

I know i can never be the perfect wife,

But one thing is for sure,

I have an amazing mother with me,

Who'd guide me on how to be one :)

A woman of worth

2010-05-02T21:42:00.001+08:00

She is someone who cares a lot,

In which we greatly take for granted.

Her care is so genuine,

that you and I could not understand.

She is someone who loves to love,

Into which we sometimes think is too much,

A love that we say we don't need right now,

But it is a love that we seriously need forever.

She is someone who thinks of you,

Day and night praying for your safety.

THough you may not know,

She says I love you when your fast asleep.

She is someone who cries for you,

When your tears could no longer fall.

A silent love into which is so loud,

that we easily start to ignore.

She is someone who is loved the least,

Yet gives the greatest love with no exchange.

A love that is so pure and sacrificial,

To the point that death is no longer a fear.

She is a woman of worth, a woman of God.

She is a rare jewel that cannot be duplicated,

Her love is unchangeable, uncrushable.

Who is this woman I talk about?

She's a mother.

My mother, your mother is our greatest treasure,

Appreciate her for she deserves that love,

Remember, she loved you, so so much,

Even before the day that you were born. :)

To keep or to Love

2010-03-25T09:54:00.004+08:00

Want to keep me? Or love me?

If you want to keep me,

be sure you know your place,

You're my friend

And that won't change.

If you want to keep me,

Don't even try to chase me,

Set me free and let me live,

Don't hold me like you own me.

If you want to keep me,

Stay where you are,

Don't take a step,

That you cannot take back.

If you want to keep me,

Don't you dare touch me,

I know your thoughts,

So don't even dare and try.

If you want to keep me,

Don't provoke me,

Don't take a risk,

that'll end up in regret.

In the other hand.

If you want to love me,

More than you do now,

Be sure you know

What you're getting yourself in.

If you want to love me,

Be sure you'll never leave me,

If you're not sure,

Don't even bother trying.

If you want to love me,

Be prepared to be rejected,

Coz for the courage,

I might keep you still.

If you want to love me,

Don't strangle me,

I won't give you all,

No compromises.

If you want to love me,

Be sure to be careful,

I break easily,

And I'm hard to fix.

If you want to love me,

You gotta chase after me,

It's a tough race,

You better win.

If you want to love me,

You better love Him first,

If you don't,

I'd reject you forever.

❤

What does it take.

2010-03-25T08:46:00.002+08:00

What does it take for a woman,
to be worthy of love from a man?
What does it take for a woman,
for his man not to cheat on her?

What does it take for a woman,
to be treated like a gem instead of a toy?
What does it take for a woman,
to be beautiful without his lust?

What does it take for a woman,
to be held with gentleness?
What does it take for a woman,
to be respected as she is?

What does it take for a woman,
for her man to love her endlessly?

What does it really take?

Dreams

2010-03-21T18:40:00.002+08:00

What does it really take,

To get a hold of your dreams?

To reach it, to hold it, to live it.

What does it really take?

Well, let me tell you,

based on the life that i live,

The life I live in which,

I yearn to grab my dream.

It takes away the norm out of you,

It may seem easy and fast,

But believe me,

It takes more than you can imagine.

If you have a truck of friends,

Dreams will take them one by one,

And leave you a sack of them instead,

Or no, Maybe just a cup.

If you have a comfortable life,

Be sure to know what to keep,

Dreams will take them fast,

And can't take them back.

If you have someone special,

Be sure that he understands you.

Or have the same dream likes yours,

Coz if not, misunderstandings are sure to come.

If you love your friends,

More than your family,

You're taking a huge risk here.

Coz in the end, family is the ones that stay.

If you walk in silver and gold,

Be prepared to walk in burning coals,

Or even broken glasses.

Be prepared do not be reckless.

If you think you could reach it alone,

Give up now coz you'll end up sad.

Reaching dreams ain't just about holding 'em,

It's more than that.

If you think dreams is all that matters,

You might live a very lonesome life.

Never ever step on someone else,

To just get a hold of your dreams.

It's more than the thought of reaching it.

It's the journey that you would take.

It's the ups and downs.

It's the wounds, and the scars, and the tears.

Getting there ain't the end of the road,

It's the beginning of a new path.

Never think that when you get there,

Everything would be a bliss.

Believe me, it'll get tougher and tougher.

Dreams aren't all sparkly and flashy,

It's a responsibility that can drag you down.

Dreams are not happily ever afters.

But one thing i can assure you,

Your Dreams can make a difference,

You dream not for yourself,

But for the people around you.

The weak, the lonely, the tired ones.

They need your dreams to keep them breathing,

Whatever your dreams are,

It'll make a change.

It's your choice if it'll be for good or bad,

But it'll make a change nonetheless.

Grasp what I am saying here,

Your dreams are not for yourself.

Be sure to keep yourself sane.

Keep your feet on the ground,

and never loose faith.

Keep your eyes ahead.

One advice from a dear ol' pal.

There's only one thing that keeps me sane,

One thing that keeps me aiming high,

No matter how i was dragged down,

One thing that kept me happy,

Despite all the pressure and pain.

One thing that kept my dreams alive,

Despite the plans of others to destroy it.

One thing.

And that is Prayers.

Yes. YOu heard me right. Prayers.

Nothing else but prayers.

If there is one thing that can keep you sane,

From this journey of yours to your dreams,

It is the Creator of that dream.

Take it from me.

From a dreamer who've let go of so many things,

Just for the sake of her dreams,

To make a change in this place we're living in,

In this temporary world.

❤

Technology

2010-02-24T22:54:00.002+08:00

There is a danger in my field of work,

I can get sucked up in the technology.

To live a life like there was no tomorrow,

with no outer sunshine to face.

I need to balance my life for sure,

Or else I'll miss out the joy of life.

I need to get over this addiction I am in,

and see the source of life outside.

Technology can make you stop live,

It can deceive you of real happiness.

It can destroy your dreams and goals,

Once you are hypnotized by it.

So now I will let it go for awhile,

I know its hard but aint as if I'd die.

I need to get the balance of my life,

Or else I'd miss out the gift of life.

Bedside Song

2010-01-27T18:37:00.001+08:00

Sitting on my own bed,

Wanting to write a song,

To someone I don't even know who.

I just want to write that's all.

Melodies that I want to sing,

But don't really know where to begin.

There's a song inside of me,

Wanting to come out in perfect melody.

La La La La La,

Do i begin with these words?

Or should I rather say what's in my heart.

I want to sing out loud,

I don't have a song I know,

But there's something in me,

That wants to come out and sing.

So I will sing La La La La La,

Even if there's no point.

La La La La La to you and me,

Let's just sing La La La La La.

I know it's weird, I know its lame,

But I want to sing, that's all i know,

So sing with me if you want to,

Even with my senseless lyrics.

La La La La La La

I will sing this song over again.

La La La La La La

Sing with me and let your heart afloat.

Just let it out, Just hum a tune,

It doesn't have to be perfect,

Just Sing it out and for sure,

Somewhere, somewhat,

You'll find the right words,

and find your perfect song. :)

Technology Maze

2010-01-27T18:28:00.002+08:00

I stare at the screen of my computer,

Wanting to do something productive,

But can't seem to get my butt off it.

It's as if I am hooked into it.

I wait and I wait.

Waiting for people in perfect patience.

Getting stuck in front of my computer,

While time is ticking without my control.

Please I want a life,

Get me out of this maze I am in,

There's a huge world out there,

That is waiting for me to discover.

Tell me how, Tell me when.

I want to get out of this maze I'm in.

I want to run I want to climb I want to fly,

Please save me from this endless maze.

Please tell me how to get out of this maze,

Time is ticking and I'm missing my life,

There's a lot to discover,

Please save me from this maze I am in.

More than this

2010-01-14T15:52:00.003+08:00

There's got to be something deeper,

Something brighter than each passing day.

There's got to be something bigger,

Bigger than this small space I am in.

I want to go out and see the world,

I want to run out my room on bare foot.

I want to jump through my window

and fly across the neighborhood.

I know there's something bigger than this,

Bigger than this tiny world of mine.

I got to get out of my box,

And see the world

without walls.

Behind every window I see,

Is a girl who wants to come out,

It's the spirit in them,

the adventure they long for.

There's got to be more than this,

There's got to be more than that,

It the shout of every heart,

It's the cry of every soul.

Everyone was made for an adventure,

it's a matter of choice if they'll run after it,

To get out of their own comfort zone,

And take the risk of falling down at first.

100th Entry

2009-12-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow.

I wonder what it shall bring.

Happiness, Pain or No changes?

I really wonder what's instored.

Tomorrow.

Such a simple word,

Yet can always surprise us.

Good or bad, what does it bring?

Tomorrow.

Should i fear it?

Or should I look forward to it?

Excitement for sure is in.

Tomorrow.

All I can say is that,

Today will produce,

What tomorrow would be.

Tomorrow.

Should I really worry about it?

Or should I leave it in the hands,

Of the one we call Today?

Tomorrow. Today.

Which should we focus on.

The present or the future?

Weight it, choice is a must.

Tomorrow. Today.

What is Tomorrow,

When Today is neglected.

Today is much important?

Today.

I must take one step at a time.

Not leaning so much into Tomorrow,

Yet not lagging too much in Today.

Both must be balanced as i see.

Today.

Such a simple word,

Just like Tomorrow,

Yet gives a different emotion.

Today.

Such present it is from God,

That should be appreciated,

Not Tomorrow but Today :)

One thing is for sure.

Today I am enjoying,

And Tomorrow is exciting,

Life is a journey for you and me :)

So this New Year we face,

Let your Todays be filled with joy,

And your Tomorrows with excitement.

Enjoy life to the fullest, as God designed it to be.

:)

2009-12-29T09:41:00.002+08:00

I will Grow up :)

There's a kid inside of us,

that could never be forgotten,

a treasure meant for keeping,

and hidden for a certain time.

A kid inside all of us,

That tells us to enjoy life,

To take rest when tired,

To live like there's no tomorrow.

There's a kid inside you and me,

Who never stopped telling us,

That we need to love and care for others,

As much as we need to be loved and cared for.

A kid jumping inside of us,

Reminding us that life is a blast,

WHen we focus on the simple things,

Rather than the complicated ones.

There's a kid inside our hearts,

Reminding us of our first Love,

Our first love whom died for us,

Who would never ever leave us.

A kid crying inside of us,

Wishing that we be forever young,

and appreciate life God has given us,

That was meant for us to enjoy.

There's a kid inside all of us,

That would never ever fade,

but could rust and be broken,

And be hidden in deep darkness.

A kid inside all of us,

That shouldn't be forgotten,

but remembered as always,

Even if we've all grown up.

There's a kid inside all of us,

That keeps us smiling,

that keeps us laughing,

that keeps us from crying too hard.

A kid inside all of us,

Reminding us all,

That in the eyes of God,

We are still a kid forever, forever His. :)

Mask it All

2009-12-24T14:34:00.002+08:00

All I ever wanted was to give joy,

Joy for this holiday we celebrate.

To visit a sick friend is what I want,

But another force doesn't want me to.

I am just so sad,

That this Christmas all i bring is tears,

All i bring is perfect imperfection.

What more could I ever offer.

This Christmas is my saddest so far.

I don't want others to feel it for sure.

So let me bottle up myself this time,

Being open ain't just my thing.

I go to extremes I know I do.

How I wish i have a medicine of cure,

A doctor who could examine my heart,

and teach it to balance as I should.

Why is it so difficult to be me?

How am I suppose to live?

I am always lost and misunderstood.

It's just time to mask it all once more.

Whispers

2009-12-23T17:37:00.003+08:00

Singing my heart out,

One Sunday morning,

amongst the crowd,

I saw you and I smiled.

I wonder if you noticed me,

my eyes met yours,

and right there on I whispered,

a simple prayer of chance.

CH.

God listen to my plead,

Give us another chance to meet,

Nothing less, Nothing More,

All I want is another chance.

I don't know how many angels,

delivered this whispher,

but God heard it for sure,

For I was given this chance.

We met not only with eyes,

but our hearts intertwined,

I found a friend in him,

and I wanted to keep it there.

CH.

God listen to my plead,

Give us another chance to meet,

Nothing less, Nothing More,

All I want is another chance.

I found a lot of chances,

because of my simple whispers,

Whispers that turned into music,

music of prayers in perfect melody.

And it all began

with a simple whisper,

whisper of prayers,

prayers of chances,

chances turned into fate.

Not The Right Season

2009-12-16T22:52:00.003+08:00

My heart is in a weird cycle,

I like you now, then not later.

I think it's because I really like you!

Told ya it was a weird cycle.

You are someone I really like,

The outer core of who you are,

Haven't really seen the inner part,

That I am not even sure if you'd reveal.

I just love being with you,

I am always happy to see you.

I enjoy every bit of your company.

I can be myself when you are around.

But then, somewhere deep inside,

I just feel that there is something wrong.

Liking someone ain't bad at all,

but developing emotions is something else.

I think I am liking your company too much,

that I always want you to be around.

It's just not right, we're just friends,

nothing more nothing less.

I mean there's also nothing wrong,

with having such feelings for you.

But then this is just ain't my season,

For that kind of a thing.

This season is for me to reach my dreams,

I am not even sure if you're the one for me,

I just got to fight this emotions,

to keep the friendship you have offered.

I don't want to go to extremes.

I want you stay and not leave.

But for that I must discipline my heart.

It ain't easy but it's worth it all.

I sound like a little desperate kid,

But then I am an emotional thing.

I was made this way, God's way.

I was made to love, to care, to be loved.

It's time to say goodbye to this thing,

this thing i call emotional roller coasters.

Something they call love or whatever.

This ain't just the right season for it. :)

True Success

2009-12-16T11:06:00.004+08:00

True Success,

I found today where it lies,

Where it could be found,

where it could be attained.

True success I've found,

Not in my skills or gifts,

Not in my bank account or savings,

Not in how hard I worked with it.

True Success is easily spotted,

But is usually ignored and rejected.

It is challenging and pride killing.

Something hard to accept.

True success is no mystery,

It is in the hands of our God.

How to attain it is in His laws.

True success is found with conditions.

True success will reach dreams,

True success will bless relationships,

True success will pour financial blessings,

True success will create real confidence.

True success is found in His Laws.

This is the only source of true success,

Want to know how to attain it?

Read Ephesians 6: 1-3

It's proven and tested,

Wait for my life testimony too,

and someday I will prove this true.

It's a challenge I would surely face.

To reach the dreams God has given me. :)

To be a friend

2009-12-12T11:14:00.004+08:00

I really like you so much,

but I think it won't be long.

I know that you are not for me,

but what if I am wrong?

I want to be there for you always,

but do you even need me?

Am I forcing myself into you,

Or am i just plain being a friend?

Everything was well,

Until you somewhat changed.

Did I do something wrong?

Or am I just thinking way too much?

I missed having fun with you,

and not seeing you has been weird.

It's as if we are friends,

but at the same time we are not.

We never had the chance,

To really know each other enough.

Or is this enough,

And i just couldn't accept that fact?

Do I really like you this much?

But what if you don't feel the same?

Is it really about liking you,

or filling this longing in my heart?

Am i being selfish again,

or has love always been like this?

Human love i couldn't understand.

Why does it have to be so hard.

I want to be the best friend for you,

But how could I be one,

When I need you more than you do.

I don't like what I am saying no more.

I think I really like you,

and I don't think it's healthy.

Our friendship might come to an end,

with these crazy emotions I feel.

I think it's time to let go of myself,

and be a real friend that I should be.

Letting go of my feelings for you,

And focusing on the friendship you give. :)

Counting the days

2009-11-19T12:38:00.003+08:00

The bells are ringing,
Homemade cookies baked,
Red and green cards everywhere.
The spirit of Christmas is here.

Christmas is here once again,
Knocking at our doors,
With songs of carols,
Christmas music everywhere.

But why can't i feel it again?
I didn't feel it last year,
Now it's here once more.
Just like the year before.

Busy again before December came,
Been like this three years in a row.
I miss the Christmas spirit in me,
I want it back but don't know how.

I miss counting the days,
Playing Christmas music in full blast.
Wrapping home made gifts,
Writing Christmas letters.

I miss being excited!
I miss the thrill of the months of -er.
I miss decorating any rooms I am in,
I miss christmas fun parties.

I miss Christmas cookies,
I miss writing gift lists.
I miss my spirit...
My spirit of Christmas.

I've been looking for it for long,
It's been three straight years now,
And i can't seem to have it back.
Christmas is an ordinary day for me now.

An ordinary day, or holiday...
Does it even matter?
When I lost the spirit of Christmas.
I lost it... I need it back...

No Title

2009-11-18T08:07:00.004+08:00

God I know you're there,
I know that you look after me,
With every move i make,
Wether be it big or small.

God You know my worries,
you know that i trust you,
but do i really trust you enough?
Is doubt really that deceiving?

God You know that deep within,
I have full faith in your Word,
But then again doubt went in,
Asking if it was really your Word.

God you know that I love you,
But sometimes i think I've sinned too much,
Yeah, Forgiveness is always there,
But i don't want to hurt someone i love.

God You know my needs,
You know what I need right now,
You know what could calm me,
You know where I am going.

God there's so much doubt in me,
that i want to go crazy already.
I cried to you several times,
I know my tears matched with yours.

God I want to trust you,
Could you please renew my heart?
I want to keep my faith strong,
Strong enough that doubt couldn't creep in.

God I realized that I really am nothing,
Without you I can never live.
I don't know what's up with me.
Maybe all I just want to say is that...

God I need you

Reaching my Dreams for yours

2009-10-27T13:47:00.000+08:00

I have a dream

And that is for you to reach your dream

Confusing I am to you right now,

But that's the truth, it is my dream.

I dream for you to reach your dream,

and ignite the passion in your heart,

I know you couldn't do it alone,

For I myself couldn't do it alone as well.

I dream for you to never loose hope,

That in every dream is a future unseen.

A future we may never know for sure,

But would surely change history I know.

Each of us has a dream of our own,

Some are unpleasant but most are good.

Each dream needs guidance for sure,

And that is my dream to guide you to yours.

I want to reach you as far as I could,

As far as reaching to your home.

I want to encourage you in every way,

That you may see the importance of your dream.

All dreams have a purpose of their own,

It is in your hands if you'll use it for good or not.

This is my calling this is my dream,

To help you reach your dream for good.

Please pray for me I plead,

I want to reach you as soon as i can,

I know it seems impossible for now,

But nothing is impossible through my God.

Even when everybody says I can't.

I will choose to say "I can!"

Coz Nobody could step on this dream i have,

Unless I allow them to crush this hope in me.

I know I can reach you wherever you are,

It's just a matter of perseverance and faith.

Nobody said it would be an easy task,

But that's the thrill of reaching a dream!

So just wait for me my friend,

I will help you ignite that passion in you.

Just keep on holding and never let go,

Together we will make your dreams come true!

Is it Deep Enough?

2009-10-24T07:25:00.003+08:00

I like you.

I don't really know how deep that is,

But all I know is I like being around you.

I just like it, I can't explain why.

I've been thinking a lot,

Why do I even like you so much?

I don't know how deep that is,

Is it just a friend or more than that?

There were days that i didn't care so much,

But then the question still hunts me so far.

Why do I like you so much?

I can't even answer that question right now.

I like you but i can't go deeper than that,

I can't say I love you, coz I just don't.

I like you is the perfect phrase.

Not a lover not even a crush.

Yes you are special to me,

But does speciality fall to love immediately?

I don't really know how to answer that.

I like you. Is that special enough?

A lot has been running through my mind,

Will you stay for long as my friend,

Even if I find my special someone in my life,

Or would you leave just like the others did?

You're special and I like you,

I don't want to loose you,

But I don't want to love you neither.

Am I being unfair, or just normal?

I believe you are matured enough,

but then again that is my prayer.

Mature enough to stay as friends,

Coz I'm afraid to loose you as well.

Maybe I should just stop thinking,

And enjoy this friendship you've given.

But then again, I can't help it at times,

I'm just afraid of loosing you from my sight.

But then... there's nothing to be afraid of,

Coz I like you and that's all there is.

Or am I just confused deep inside,

Not knowing "I Like You" is deep enough?

Behind the Poise

2009-09-12T09:56:00.002+08:00

She drops her purse,

Picks it up in great poise,

Smiles to the people around,

Walks like a princess on a street.

She is always seen to be polite,

Demure and gentle in every way.

Speaks with great gracefulness,

That no men could not resist.

She is very pure and serene,

For this she is found to be weak,

Found to be fragile deep within,

Seen as if she could break anytime.

But not everyone can see,

What is really deep inside of her,

Beneath her smooth and frail front,

She is hiding something big.

She is a warrior deep within,

No matter how demure she can be,

No matter how fragile she can look,

No matter how unbelievable it can be.

She is a warrior in the heart,

No other can take that off of her,

She is stronger than she thinks,

That soceity can't always accept.

She is a warrior in disguise,

That no man could really understand.

A princess and a warrior in one,

That God created in perfect deisgn.

A princess that takes his breath away,

A warrior that keeps him secured.

A princess and a warrior by heart,

That can be seen in every woman around.

In every princess is a warrior inside,

Who fights with great courage,

Paired up with great beauty and faith,

That no other could really defeat.

A princess and a warrior in one,

That's how God created us,

Women in the making,

That is sure taking breaths away.

The Two

2009-08-28T22:24:00.002+08:00

My heart is crushed. I am caught in between.

No I am not talking about love triangles or such,

It's much more important than those stuff.

I am actually caught in between the two.

Who are the two? They're men to be honest.

Two of the most important people in my life;

Well that's how much i value them as of now.

They're the two whom i trust and inspired me a ton.

The Two are actually best of friends,

They'd do everything together with joy,

Not to mention that they're like real siblings.

The Two has a unique kind of friendship for sure.

But that was before, way back from before.

It hurts so much to say the word "before",

If you just knew The Two and see them day by day?

I know for sure you'd feel so hurt and sad for sure.

I am just a friend to them.

But I am very much affected by their separation.

I asked myself why do i feel this way,

When it shouldn't be my concern anyways.

It's because, they're both important to me,

They're a huge part of my life in this town,

They were the first few friends I've had when i was new,

And they were the ones who inspired me to move on.

And now seeing them separated like this?

MY heart is crushed to its tad bits.

I could never do anything to glue them back.

The Two is gone and it hurts so much.

I want to cry, I want to brawl,

I want to shout this pain that i caught.

Why do i even bother worry about it?

Coz honestly I am caught in between The Two.

We were together somewhere awhile ago.

A group of friends and The Two was with me.

I couldn't help the fact that i want to be with both,

But the Two just couldn't be together as before.

I was caught in between, I hopped from one arm to another,

Trying to be happy and being together with The Two.

But i just can't help it, it's hard to be in between The Two.

Both are important as the other, but I cannot have them both.

I can't help the fact but ask.

"Why did you guys separate? can't you reconcile?"

I want to shout at them, tell them how important they are.

But i believe no matter what i say or do, could never recover the past.

Both sides are wrong, but why is forgiveness out of the scene?

They inspired me a lot when they were The Two.

But now all i can see are pains and hurts that i carry within.

Why do they have to separate... it pricks my heart so much.

The Two are still my friends,

But I can't have them together as before.

It's a sad truth that i hate the most.

I hope it won't last forever as they thought.

I can still be with them,

They give me more attention unlike before,

But I'd rather have them give me less attention,

And return The Two just like before.

I want to cry. But the tears won't fall off.

For deep within I'm happy to see The Two,

Even if a wall is stuck in between The Two..

...

Mirror... Mirror on the wall.

2009-08-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

I looked at the mirror today,
Looking for pimples i could erase,
Taking off the blemishes off my skin,
Frowning at the imperfection of my face.

Why did i even bother looking?
When all I could feel is ugliness.
But then, I really do wonder...
Why can't I help look at the mirror?

I think...Maybe, just maybe...
It's because I was made this way.
I was created to be beautiful.
Yeah, I think that's the real reason.

Beauty. How is it really defined?
Some say, "Beauty is expensive ",
Some say "Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder",
Some even say that beauty cannot be defined.

So what does beauty really mean?
Let's go back from the beginning,
Way back to the Garden of Eden,
From the first woman who ever lived.

Eve.
She was described as beautiful.
She was the finishing touches of creation.
She was created to produce beauty.

That is what beauty really means,
Let's go straight to the point.
How is beauty really defined?
Simple. Beauty is womanhood.

Everything about a woman,
is simply just beautiful.
From the way she walks,
to the way she talks.

From the way she dresses,
to the way she washes,
From the way she smiles,
to the way she cries.

From the way she touches,
to the way she conceives.
From the way she cooks,
to the way she loves.

If you're a woman, then you are beautiful,
no matter what the mirror says to you,
it could never be as accurate as your heart.
In every core of our heart is a woman that is captivating.

So the next time you look at the mirror,
Smile and see the beauty in you,
It can be your eyes, your smile, your nose,
Or even your lips, or your brows.

In every woman, there is great beauty within.
So when the mirror talks to you again,
Smile and just say,
"I am beautiful, I was created to be beautiful."

First Love

2009-08-24T07:46:00.004+08:00

I've liked a guy for six years. He was cool and all that, but he was just a friend. I even wondered why I liked him so much all these years, when I don't even know him that well. I guess this is what you call a "crush" just seeing the mere outside and liking it at that point only. I realized lately that this guy I've liked since I was in grade school, was already gone from my heart, my standards went higher as time passed.

Now I see why it is so easy for me to like someone now, how vulnerable my heart really is; coz right now it's kind of empty and it's not that loyal to any human being at all. Anybody could pass by my heart but it takes some more will for someone to open its door. At times I do feel lonely, I feel like I want to talk to someone, go eat with someone, have lunch with someone. I tried it with my closest friends, but still the longing was there. It was different.

I guess this really happens when my brain is inactive. What i mean is, I am not doing anything productive much. I hope soon this loneliness would fade, coz I know it's just a gush of the wind in my life. It won't stay forever for my life goes on to an adventure. I have God and that's what's keeping me from doing the greatest mistake of my life; To be in a relationship with the most selfish reasons.

I know someone is there for me. He's still in an adventure with God like me. I know for sure that I haven't met him yet. I don't know, but I've had dreams that i think gave out signs. I am just so happy that finally, i got to move on. Finally i grew up and realized that the guy i liked for six years is really just a friend to me, he is just like a brother. Yes, we do still talk, but then the awkwardness is gone and i love it.

Wow, so this is how it feels to not like someone at all. I have crushes, but it's a part of being a human, as humans we get attracted to the opposite gender almost everyday! That's how beautiful God's Creation is. :) My heart doesn't like anyone right now, no one is inside but my first love. Actually my first love would never ever leave my heart that's for sure.

I am so happy that my heart is so free now, it feels so different. I see people on a different perspective. I am loving life. Though i know that i must protect my heart for sure, coz there would be people who'd pass by my heart and try to knock its door by force. I am just so happy my first love is guarding my heart.

Who's my first love? Of course, the Artist who created me :)

Someone I like...

2009-08-20T18:03:00.000+08:00

Today I saw someone,

Whom I didn't expect to see.

Someone dear to my eyes,

Unsure if dear to my heart.

He is someone I've known,

Not far from before,

He's actually new to my life,

Which I treasure the most.

He is someone I love to see,

but when his presence is present,

I begin to act like a total crack.

Eating my words, cannot stay put.

Someone I don't really know,

Whom I like to observe,

To know much better,

Than what i already know.

He is unable to be reached,

He is someone who sees me,

Not more than a little girl,

Who needs a pat on the head.

He is quiet, simple and blank.

His words strikes into my heart,

He rarely speaks of foolish things,

And that's what I like most about him.

He is mysterious and calm,

He thinks deeper than the others,

He slowly processes wisdom at hand,

And ask questions I never thought of.

He sits in a certain position,

That makes him look smart and cool,

What's even more better than that is,

He acts this way ever since before.

He doesn't hide what he thinks,

He is straight and frank.

His words hurt at times,

But he speaks in complete truth

He is simple, tall and thin.

Too simple that makes me want,

To add more art on how he dress,

Something I'd do for love.

He thinks so deep that i want to sink,

To dive in his thoughts and clearly see,

What he is hiding deep within.

To see the condition of his heart.

I want to understand him more,

But I don't have the license to do so.

We are friends and that's how it is,

It doesn't hurt, for i do not expect.

There are no emotions attached,

To my pure admiration for him,

For i really haven't seen who he is,

For i can only see the outer mask.

I hope i can see him often,

and talk to him about life,

But i know deep within,

That if i do, I'd fall for him.

I am now not ready for such a thing,

For i know he is still growing and so am i.

He is very near and yet i feel so far.

I want to be a friend, but how can i be?

All I pray today,

Is that i would get to know him more,

and not fall for him the way i see.

I want to be dear to him as he is for me.

Pure friendship is what i deeply seek,

I wonder if he'd accept the offer i wish to give.

I cannot imagine my life with him,

but i really do want to know who he is.

I'm not sure, but i think,

I am deeply attracted to him,

for he is someone like me.

I don't know, I'm not sure.

Whatever it is, all i can say,

I think I like him,

But i could never ever say I love him.

I admire him and i think it'll stay there.

STOP!

2009-08-05T09:20:00.001+08:00

Busy there, busy here,

Busy now, Busy later.

It's a never ending cycle.

Too much need, to much work.

Where is the beauty of life,

It is never found no more,

when everything is just so fast,

Nothing is just like before.

Stop!

Take a bit of a moment,

to pause in this fast paced life,

You have to want to pause,

To see life in a better view.

It's worth the pause and miss out some,

that never pause and miss out all,

Life isn't all about busyness,

Take a pause and you'll see what i mean.

When you take a pause, to stop

You're giving yourself a precious gift,

the gift of life that was meant for you,

So don't waste it and open it.

Life isn't all about work,

Sometimes you just have to pause,

to see the beauty of what you've done.

Being busy ain't cool, so Stop! you need it the most.

You are the only one

2009-08-03T09:13:00.000+08:00

There’s a void in my heart,

That only You could perfeclty fill.

A void sucking my joy out,

That only You could prefeclty shut.

There’s this void in my heart,

caused by the nature of sin,

A void i thought that could be filled,

By the gifts the world could give.

But then, with all the pain life could bring,

There you are ready to call my name.

You are all i need,

To fill this void in my heart,

rushing through my vains,

slowly shutting my life down.

YOu are the only cure,

from this emptinesss that i feel,

YOu are the perfect beat of my heart,

Please stay and never fade.

This void is as blank as the sky,

with no stars painted across,

It’s so dark and cold,

Alonne I feel in this midnight sky.

but then a star flashed across,

Gving me hope to believe,

that in the darkest cold midnight sky,

are small stars shining so bright.

In the midst of all the pan life could bring,

There you are ready to shine through my day.

YOu are all I need,

thats what i really do believe,

you are my source of life,

a heartbeat i need all the time.

You are the only one for me,

that could fill this void inside.

I’m sorry for not seeing you first,

When you’re the only cure.

A declaration

2009-07-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

This entry is a declaration.

From this day on, until the time God would call me to do this, I am giving up cosplaying!

My Little Friend

2009-07-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

I have a little friend inside of me,

That calms my heart down,

When it is raging with madness,

That nobody else could calm down.