Expressing Thru Art

Is there a way to express myself thru art?
Too many ideas for me to attain,
Don't know where to start or what to choose.
How can i express my chaotic thoughts?

I want to create beautiful arts,
but how could I possibly do,
when i don't know where to start?
I've got to have a major redo.

Art should be spontaneous,
It should be caught off handed!
It may apply to me and not to you,
Whatever it is, I want to express!

It's time to stop sorting out!
And start expressing what I feel.
Art is all about expressions.
Expressions know no law.

The Point

I came to the point into which I've accepted that I could never understand God's Ways. I might know it in His perfect timing or will never know about it till the day that i reconcile with Him :)

That's it.

I've had enough of this.

I know i'm different,

the way i think or express.

I've had enough of this.

Nobody could understand me,

except my family and God.

One or two friends maybe,

but that's it and it ends there.

I'm tired of explaining who I am,

tired of being different.

I've got to blend in and be silent,

and leave my thoughts somewhere else.

I've had enough pains of ignorance,

or misjudgment, of unacceptance.

I am closing my doors of openness,

And let my art express who I am.

Let me close who I am for a year,

All i can do now is listen and be silent.

Give a couple of advices if needed,

but if not, this one must shut up.

I am just so tired of who I am,

But i cannot destroy who I am.

Rather i will adjust and do what i can,

and let God do the rest and the best.

That's it.

It's the end of the rope.

I will keep my thoughts for myself.

It stays that way indefinitely.