Calling

I am born at a perfect time.

Breathed life for a reason.

Stepped out for a purpose.

Living for a calling.

I know I am meant for something,

Something that i can't comprehend.

Something I can't clearly see,

But faithfully can hold onto.

I am called for something great.

Even greater than living itself.

I wasn't born to just survive.

I was called to do something great.

But as i grew up,

The world blinded my vision.

Slowly i forgot that i was called.

Began to live life just to survive.

Living just to survive is just empty.

It's living in void and confusion.

Having no sense of worth,

Having nothing to foresee.

Living life in that way,

Is simply as good as dying already.

Life is nothing but a dead end.

Nothing to see, nothing to do.

Meaningless.

Perfect definition of life survival.

So why live for no reason?

It's better to end it now than suffer.

Just when I was about to give up,

To leave this evil world behind,

A tiny spark of a loving memory,

Enlightened my once dead vision.

The One who called me,

Showed Himself in pure love.

Gave me a hand and lifted me up.

And gave me smile of hope.

He said,

"Don't give up just yet."

"You live for a calling.."

"I am with you, You will not fail."

I am indeed called.

Called for a reason, a purpose.

Called to love & live for Him alone,

And that is my highest calling. :)

The Bridge

Today I almost lost someone dear,

Because i wanted to run away.

Just when the tough gets going,

I got myself ready to turn away.

I cried drowning on my bed,

Tried to throw every memory away.

Decided to run and turn away,

from this someone dear to me.

But the funniest thing happened. . .

No matter how i let go of the rope,

If he won't let go of his,

the bridge won't fall off at all.

This bridge of friendship that we have,

That i was oh so ready to leave,

Was not destroyed at all,

Just because he hold onto his end.

The fact that he held on,

means there's hope for both.

We can still fix it and put it up,

despite the brokenness it had.

Just when i was about to give up,

He held stronger than before.

Of course he got his help from above,

to strengthen him on the hold.

This is the beauty of friendship,

that is given from above.

When its about to break off,

Strong bonds would not let it go.

God is indeed the maker of all,

He set this bridge for us,

and He is willing to keep it forever,

No matter how much I break it apart.

Thank you my dear best friend,

for not letting go of your end.

It gave so much hope and joy,

That made me hold on once again. :)

My Love, My God

You watched me walk alone,
Never took Your eyes away from me,
You never left me as i walked,
Prepared to catch me if I fall.

My Love, My God.
You never left my side.
Even if I thought you did,
You actually never did.

My Love, My God.
Without you my soul is gone,
Without you my life is a wreck,
Without you I am nothing but dust.

My Love, My God.
I missed you so,
Please walk with me,
Side by side forever.

My Love, My God.
You are my first and my last,
Nothing can be compared,
To You in love.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for painting the stars,
For me to see that you care,
That you are watching over me.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for your smile,
That kept me going in life,
That kept me loved .

My Love, My God.
No one can ever take your place,
You belong in my heart alone,
No one else can be there but You.

My Love, My God.
Change my heart and stay inside,
My soul is thirsty for you,
and my body longs for you.

My Love, My God.
Stay inside me forever,
Till the day I see you face to face,
Please take control of my heart.

My Love, My God.
My emotions are all yours,
My thoughts are all yours,
My choices are all yours.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for taking me back,
To your loving arms,
To your wings of grace.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for loving me so. :)

God, I've changed.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I am not the one before,

I've grown up and squandered.

I've lost my faith in you,

And had endless doubts.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I'm not the same as before,

I don't sing from my heart,

I've lost my interest in you,

But my heart needs you so.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I don't do my prayers no more,

I've stopped writing letters for you,

I stopped giving my best,

I've come to the end of my road.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I pray and i pray,

But no answer i can hear,

I know i've brought pain,

Oh God please give me grace.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I'm not the girl you used to know,

I've lost my way,

I am not as innocent as before,

I am filled in filth and dirt.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I loved the world more than you,

MY heart is so thirsty oh God,

Can you still hear me dear God?

Can you see my tears from my heart?

God I've changed,

Can you still accept me?

Coz i just realized i can't live without you.