Calling

I am born at a perfect time.

Breathed life for a reason.

Stepped out for a purpose.

Living for a calling.

I know I am meant for something,

Something that i can't comprehend.

Something I can't clearly see,

But faithfully can hold onto.

I am called for something great.

Even greater than living itself.

I wasn't born to just survive.

I was called to do something great.

But as i grew up,

The world blinded my vision.

Slowly i forgot that i was called.

Began to live life just to survive.

Living just to survive is just empty.

It's living in void and confusion.

Having no sense of worth,

Having nothing to foresee.

Living life in that way,

Is simply as good as dying already.

Life is nothing but a dead end.

Nothing to see, nothing to do.

Meaningless.

Perfect definition of life survival.

So why live for no reason?

It's better to end it now than suffer.

Just when I was about to give up,

To leave this evil world behind,

A tiny spark of a loving memory,

Enlightened my once dead vision.

The One who called me,

Showed Himself in pure love.

Gave me a hand and lifted me up.

And gave me smile of hope.

He said,

"Don't give up just yet."

"You live for a calling.."

"I am with you, You will not fail."

I am indeed called.

Called for a reason, a purpose.

Called to love & live for Him alone,

And that is my highest calling. :)

My Love, My God

You watched me walk alone,
Never took Your eyes away from me,
You never left me as i walked,
Prepared to catch me if I fall.

My Love, My God.
You never left my side.
Even if I thought you did,
You actually never did.

My Love, My God.
Without you my soul is gone,
Without you my life is a wreck,
Without you I am nothing but dust.

My Love, My God.
I missed you so,
Please walk with me,
Side by side forever.

My Love, My God.
You are my first and my last,
Nothing can be compared,
To You in love.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for painting the stars,
For me to see that you care,
That you are watching over me.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for your smile,
That kept me going in life,
That kept me loved .

My Love, My God.
No one can ever take your place,
You belong in my heart alone,
No one else can be there but You.

My Love, My God.
Change my heart and stay inside,
My soul is thirsty for you,
and my body longs for you.

My Love, My God.
Stay inside me forever,
Till the day I see you face to face,
Please take control of my heart.

My Love, My God.
My emotions are all yours,
My thoughts are all yours,
My choices are all yours.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for taking me back,
To your loving arms,
To your wings of grace.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for loving me so. :)

God, I've changed.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I am not the one before,

I've grown up and squandered.

I've lost my faith in you,

And had endless doubts.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I'm not the same as before,

I don't sing from my heart,

I've lost my interest in you,

But my heart needs you so.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I don't do my prayers no more,

I've stopped writing letters for you,

I stopped giving my best,

I've come to the end of my road.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I pray and i pray,

But no answer i can hear,

I know i've brought pain,

Oh God please give me grace.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I'm not the girl you used to know,

I've lost my way,

I am not as innocent as before,

I am filled in filth and dirt.

God I've changed,

Can you still hear me?

I loved the world more than you,

MY heart is so thirsty oh God,

Can you still hear me dear God?

Can you see my tears from my heart?

God I've changed,

Can you still accept me?

Coz i just realized i can't live without you.

To keep or to Love

Want to keep me? Or love me?

If you want to keep me,

be sure you know your place,

You're my friend

And that won't change.

If you want to keep me,

Don't even try to chase me,

Set me free and let me live,

Don't hold me like you own me.

If you want to keep me,

Stay where you are,

Don't take a step,

That you cannot take back.

If you want to keep me,

Don't you dare touch me,

I know your thoughts,

So don't even dare and try.

If you want to keep me,

Don't provoke me,

Don't take a risk,

that'll end up in regret.

In the other hand.

If you want to love me,

More than you do now,

Be sure you know

What you're getting yourself in.

If you want to love me,

Be sure you'll never leave me,

If you're not sure,

Don't even bother trying.

If you want to love me,

Be prepared to be rejected,

Coz for the courage,

I might keep you still.

If you want to love me,

Don't strangle me,

I won't give you all,

No compromises.

If you want to love me,

Be sure to be careful,

I break easily,

And I'm hard to fix.

If you want to love me,

You gotta chase after me,

It's a tough race,

You better win.

If you want to love me,

You better love Him first,

If you don't,

I'd reject you forever.

❤

Dreams

What does it really take,

To get a hold of your dreams?

To reach it, to hold it, to live it.

What does it really take?

Well, let me tell you,

based on the life that i live,

The life I live in which,

I yearn to grab my dream.

It takes away the norm out of you,

It may seem easy and fast,

But believe me,

It takes more than you can imagine.

If you have a truck of friends,

Dreams will take them one by one,

And leave you a sack of them instead,

Or no, Maybe just a cup.

If you have a comfortable life,

Be sure to know what to keep,

Dreams will take them fast,

And can't take them back.

If you have someone special,

Be sure that he understands you.

Or have the same dream likes yours,

Coz if not, misunderstandings are sure to come.

If you love your friends,

More than your family,

You're taking a huge risk here.

Coz in the end, family is the ones that stay.

If you walk in silver and gold,

Be prepared to walk in burning coals,

Or even broken glasses.

Be prepared do not be reckless.

If you think you could reach it alone,

Give up now coz you'll end up sad.

Reaching dreams ain't just about holding 'em,

It's more than that.

If you think dreams is all that matters,

You might live a very lonesome life.

Never ever step on someone else,

To just get a hold of your dreams.

It's more than the thought of reaching it.

It's the journey that you would take.

It's the ups and downs.

It's the wounds, and the scars, and the tears.

Getting there ain't the end of the road,

It's the beginning of a new path.

Never think that when you get there,

Everything would be a bliss.

Believe me, it'll get tougher and tougher.

Dreams aren't all sparkly and flashy,

It's a responsibility that can drag you down.

Dreams are not happily ever afters.

But one thing i can assure you,

Your Dreams can make a difference,

You dream not for yourself,

But for the people around you.

The weak, the lonely, the tired ones.

They need your dreams to keep them breathing,

Whatever your dreams are,

It'll make a change.

It's your choice if it'll be for good or bad,

But it'll make a change nonetheless.

Grasp what I am saying here,

Your dreams are not for yourself.

Be sure to keep yourself sane.

Keep your feet on the ground,

and never loose faith.

Keep your eyes ahead.

One advice from a dear ol' pal.

There's only one thing that keeps me sane,

One thing that keeps me aiming high,

No matter how i was dragged down,

One thing that kept me happy,

Despite all the pressure and pain.

One thing that kept my dreams alive,

Despite the plans of others to destroy it.

One thing.

And that is Prayers.

Yes. YOu heard me right. Prayers.

Nothing else but prayers.

If there is one thing that can keep you sane,

From this journey of yours to your dreams,

It is the Creator of that dream.

Take it from me.

From a dreamer who've let go of so many things,

Just for the sake of her dreams,

To make a change in this place we're living in,

In this temporary world.

❤

No Title

God I know you're there,
I know that you look after me,
With every move i make,
Wether be it big or small.

God You know my worries,
you know that i trust you,
but do i really trust you enough?
Is doubt really that deceiving?

God You know that deep within,
I have full faith in your Word,
But then again doubt went in,
Asking if it was really your Word.

God you know that I love you,
But sometimes i think I've sinned too much,
Yeah, Forgiveness is always there,
But i don't want to hurt someone i love.

God You know my needs,
You know what I need right now,
You know what could calm me,
You know where I am going.

God there's so much doubt in me,
that i want to go crazy already.
I cried to you several times,
I know my tears matched with yours.

God I want to trust you,
Could you please renew my heart?
I want to keep my faith strong,
Strong enough that doubt couldn't creep in.

God I realized that I really am nothing,
Without you I can never live.
I don't know what's up with me.
Maybe all I just want to say is that...

God I need you

Behind the Poise

She drops her purse,

Picks it up in great poise,

Smiles to the people around,

Walks like a princess on a street.

She is always seen to be polite,

Demure and gentle in every way.

Speaks with great gracefulness,

That no men could not resist.

She is very pure and serene,

For this she is found to be weak,

Found to be fragile deep within,

Seen as if she could break anytime.

But not everyone can see,

What is really deep inside of her,

Beneath her smooth and frail front,

She is hiding something big.

She is a warrior deep within,

No matter how demure she can be,

No matter how fragile she can look,

No matter how unbelievable it can be.

She is a warrior in the heart,

No other can take that off of her,

She is stronger than she thinks,

That soceity can't always accept.

She is a warrior in disguise,

That no man could really understand.

A princess and a warrior in one,

That God created in perfect deisgn.

A princess that takes his breath away,

A warrior that keeps him secured.

A princess and a warrior by heart,

That can be seen in every woman around.

In every princess is a warrior inside,

Who fights with great courage,

Paired up with great beauty and faith,

That no other could really defeat.

A princess and a warrior in one,

That's how God created us,

Women in the making,

That is sure taking breaths away.

Mirror... Mirror on the wall.

I looked at the mirror today,
Looking for pimples i could erase,
Taking off the blemishes off my skin,
Frowning at the imperfection of my face.

Why did i even bother looking?
When all I could feel is ugliness.
But then, I really do wonder...
Why can't I help look at the mirror?

I think...Maybe, just maybe...
It's because I was made this way.
I was created to be beautiful.
Yeah, I think that's the real reason.

Beauty. How is it really defined?
Some say, "Beauty is expensive ",
Some say "Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder",
Some even say that beauty cannot be defined.

So what does beauty really mean?
Let's go back from the beginning,
Way back to the Garden of Eden,
From the first woman who ever lived.

Eve.
She was described as beautiful.
She was the finishing touches of creation.
She was created to produce beauty.

That is what beauty really means,
Let's go straight to the point.
How is beauty really defined?
Simple. Beauty is womanhood.

Everything about a woman,
is simply just beautiful.
From the way she walks,
to the way she talks.

From the way she dresses,
to the way she washes,
From the way she smiles,
to the way she cries.

From the way she touches,
to the way she conceives.
From the way she cooks,
to the way she loves.

If you're a woman, then you are beautiful,
no matter what the mirror says to you,
it could never be as accurate as your heart.
In every core of our heart is a woman that is captivating.

So the next time you look at the mirror,
Smile and see the beauty in you,
It can be your eyes, your smile, your nose,
Or even your lips, or your brows.

In every woman, there is great beauty within.
So when the mirror talks to you again,
Smile and just say,
"I am beautiful, I was created to be beautiful."

First Love

I've liked a guy for six years. He was cool and all that, but he was just a friend. I even wondered why I liked him so much all these years, when I don't even know him that well. I guess this is what you call a "crush" just seeing the mere outside and liking it at that point only. I realized lately that this guy I've liked since I was in grade school, was already gone from my heart, my standards went higher as time passed.

Now I see why it is so easy for me to like someone now, how vulnerable my heart really is; coz right now it's kind of empty and it's not that loyal to any human being at all. Anybody could pass by my heart but it takes some more will for someone to open its door. At times I do feel lonely, I feel like I want to talk to someone, go eat with someone, have lunch with someone. I tried it with my closest friends, but still the longing was there. It was different.

I guess this really happens when my brain is inactive. What i mean is, I am not doing anything productive much. I hope soon this loneliness would fade, coz I know it's just a gush of the wind in my life. It won't stay forever for my life goes on to an adventure. I have God and that's what's keeping me from doing the greatest mistake of my life; To be in a relationship with the most selfish reasons.

I know someone is there for me. He's still in an adventure with God like me. I know for sure that I haven't met him yet. I don't know, but I've had dreams that i think gave out signs. I am just so happy that finally, i got to move on. Finally i grew up and realized that the guy i liked for six years is really just a friend to me, he is just like a brother. Yes, we do still talk, but then the awkwardness is gone and i love it.

Wow, so this is how it feels to not like someone at all. I have crushes, but it's a part of being a human, as humans we get attracted to the opposite gender almost everyday! That's how beautiful God's Creation is. :) My heart doesn't like anyone right now, no one is inside but my first love. Actually my first love would never ever leave my heart that's for sure.

I am so happy that my heart is so free now, it feels so different. I see people on a different perspective. I am loving life. Though i know that i must protect my heart for sure, coz there would be people who'd pass by my heart and try to knock its door by force. I am just so happy my first love is guarding my heart.

Who's my first love? Of course, the Artist who created me :)

You are the only one

There’s a void in my heart,

That only You could perfeclty fill.

A void sucking my joy out,

That only You could prefeclty shut.

There’s this void in my heart,

caused by the nature of sin,

A void i thought that could be filled,

By the gifts the world could give.

But then, with all the pain life could bring,

There you are ready to call my name.

You are all i need,

To fill this void in my heart,

rushing through my vains,

slowly shutting my life down.

YOu are the only cure,

from this emptinesss that i feel,

YOu are the perfect beat of my heart,

Please stay and never fade.

This void is as blank as the sky,

with no stars painted across,

It’s so dark and cold,

Alonne I feel in this midnight sky.

but then a star flashed across,

Gving me hope to believe,

that in the darkest cold midnight sky,

are small stars shining so bright.

In the midst of all the pan life could bring,

There you are ready to shine through my day.

YOu are all I need,

thats what i really do believe,

you are my source of life,

a heartbeat i need all the time.

You are the only one for me,

that could fill this void inside.

I’m sorry for not seeing you first,

When you’re the only cure. 

27

It's one of those days again.

Recently i met a prophet,

God showed me my future,

through this great prophet.

A bright future i have indeed.

Though, there is one thing,

that greatly caught my attention,

Something i never expected to hear,

but was said to me on that day.

27 he said... when i turn 27,

That's when i'll get married.

Yeah, i was breathless for a second,

Diverse thoughts flashed like thunder.

19 I am right now,

Happily single and loving life,

I wonder what life would be,

In between these years of mine.

I wonder, is he safe?

Is he waiting for me to come?

Or has he given up waiting for me?

Can he wait? can he?

Questions i could never answer,

Only God knows for sure.

I lay him all in God's hands,

to keep him safe and pure.

This is a long journey for me,

A journey of challenges,

of self-control,

of obedience.

I pray that i could manage,

to stand on my own feet,

until the day that we'll meet.

8 years isn't such a long time.

But the journey in between,

is an adventure worth to keep.

A journey of faith and obedience,

Of passion and fire for God.

Honestly, I can't wait,

Till the day that we would meet.

I wonder if he feels the same,

to a future that is unseen. :)

Notebook in Pink Ink

Prayers i wrote down,

On a simple notebook on my bed,

written in pink colored ink,

Simple yet covered with faith.

I wrote as if i was talking to God,

Wrote with joy and expectation,

With faith and excitement,

with love and fulfillment.

Never cared what the world would think,

it's written on my simple notebook,

that only my loving God could see,

a place where i could commune with Him.

I love my notebook in pink ink,

Coz there i could read my answered prayers,

Prayers written in faith, covered with love,

written in letters, embedded in the heart.

God answered every thing i wrote,

Answered not in years, but in days,

No, not even days, but hours.

God answers in love and perfect timing. 

I can see the greatness of God,

on my notebook in pink ink,

I saw His care and great love,

in the little details of my life.

God is real,

I can prove it for sure,

with my notebook in pink ink,

surely you'll be amazed.

Though i don't need to prove a thing,

coz it can happen in your life as well,

just have the child like faith,

forget about the world and focus on Him.

Try jolting down your thoughts,

maybe in blue black or green ink,

it doesn't really matter at all ,

as long as you have the faith.

Sweet

Today is a funny day.

I was thinking about how i would love giving gifts to my future one last night. I usually give gifts to strangers who has touched my life or gave me a deep insight. A lot sees me as weird when i do this, but what can i say? I love appreciating those who pass by my life.

Then i thought that someday when my prince would come, i'll bombard him with gifts. Then i imagined him giving me unique ones and little simple gifts too :)

Then the funniest thing happened today. While i was washing the dishes. I looked out my window still deep in thought, when a yellow unique bird flew at the wire outside my window. It's the kind of bird I don't usually see. No wait. It's the first time i saw a bird like that!XD

It was so yellow, it had a long beak it was small, it had black wings and some white stripes just below its eyes. It's so beautiful, the yellow color was so rich. Then as i smiled, i just felt God whisper, "I sent that for you, do you like it?"

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My heart leaped. I was speechless.

There i was thinking what my future prince would give me, when God was already there bombarding me with small simple but rare gifts. God is my king, and it was so sweet of Him to have sent me that little bird. :) 

The best part was when he asked me if i liked it. His whisper was so sweet, it's as if it made my face muscles bring out a very huge smile.

It's one of those days were i could have ignored this little thing, but this time i didn't and i received His gift. :)

You Took it All Away

I've drifted away from you long ago,

Never knew what really happened,

But ever since i felt so empty and scared.

Dark clouds of loneliness never left me.

Questions I asked of you what has happened,

I waited and waited, until the dark of dawn,

I finally stopped asking and stopped talking.

I stopped and ran to my friends for help.

My friends where always there,

I actually began ignoring you,

For i thought you were mad at me,

I call out but you don't answer me.

All was okay, until to my great surprise,

Little my little, my friends were fading away.

Even my security and comforts at home faded.

I was so alone again, I am deeply lost, confused.

I kept thinking, "Was it you who took them all away?"

But i believe you would never ever do that to me.

You are not a God who takes happiness away.

All i know is when You close a door, you open a gate.

Suddenly, i found the truth, You took them all away.

You were the one who took all my friends,

You were the one who took my comfort away.

You took it all away, my Lord, You took it away.

You took it away for a reason i didn't see before,

You wanted to take me into a deeper level with you,

That my faith will grow stronger than before.

You wanted to bring me up, not down.

You took them all away for me to see clearly,

That i should depend on you alone,

That despite all my emotions or feelings,

There is a strong foundation of faith in my life.

Now i understand why you were silent,

You were testing me and you knew i could do it.

Now i understand that you never left,

You are actually nearer now than before.

You took them all away that i may see you,

That in every season of my life, its you whom i seek,

That despite all the storms in my life, you are still God.

That  in everything i do, i will worship you.

You took them all away in my life,

I thank you, coz now all i have is you.

Let this passion burn for you,

For you are the reason why I am living today.

Shadows

Here I am at the feet of my Saviour,

Unable to see what is ahead,

Feeling despair and loneliness,

Lost at the path i once walked on.

Somehow my saviour stood before me,

Covering me in His shadows,

Feeling emotions i deeply dislike,

Dark, Depressing, Scary.

I thought my Saviour is walking away,

Long away from me for reasons i never knew.

I cried, I deeply longed for His voice,

He is near, but all is just so dark.

My soul was hungry as ever,

To fight or not to fight is at war,

Faith and Doubt is clashing,

But His Love reigned all of them.

Tears run down my cheeks,

Arrows pierce through my heart,

Anger and confusion crept into my mind,

Desperation reign all of me.

I never tried to look up,

for i was tired and lost,

Unable to find the answers,

to my never ending questions.

Where is He?

Why did He Leave me?

What did I do?

Does He love me?

I fought with my emotions,

Held a strong grip on my faith,

Fought the deep fear in my heart,

I looked up despite the darkness in my life.

As i looked up, i saw a light,

A light that showed great glory and splendor,

I stared at this bright majestic light,

searching the whole figure of this light.

As i scanned through the feet of my Saviour,

I didn't see His back, but rather His front.

HE wasn't walking away, HE was walking nearer.

So near, that His shadow reigned all over me.

He extended a hand and smiled at me,

No word was uttered between us,

But great love and concern i felt within,

The true love of a Saviour seen through His eyes.

As He held my hand, He has brought me to a new path,

A path I am so unfamiliar with,

Yet was filled with angels and great wonders.

I just new He has brought me to a new journey.

He has closed the path of the journey i once walked on,

Bringing me closer to this new level of intimacy.

A new level of hand in hand with my Saviour,

A more powerful and fearsome adventure.

No matter how fearsome this path maybe,

My Saviour will never let go of my hand,

We will walk all through out this road,

With complete Love and Passion for the Father...:)

Before..After

Haha God is so funny!

Awhile ago i was sad and in pain,

Then the next thing i know,

I'm so happy and super excited!

I may have lost my deep friendships,

but God made all my dreams come true.

I can't wait to work in Dreamworks!

For sure God has a plan in stored for me.

If i can't work with that group,

I know for sure God has a better plan..

My whole life is in His hands,

That surely makes my life a living dream!

AhHH! can't contain this joy inside!

and God made me realize i do have a friend.

She maybe far away,

But still she cares and never forgets...:)

I really really love my best friend,

She will forever be my best friend.

Joan, she's thee one and i can't wait,

to work with her in the future plans..:D

I appreciate it, but no.

A poem for someone who confessed to me lately...>_<

A friend i met in a short while,

Confessions of feelings you let go.

I appreciate it much, i really do.

but I'm sorry I don't feel the same way.

Everything went just so fast,

I enjoyed the blooming of our friendship;

But because of such a thing you did,

the blooming somewhat came to a pause.

You're a great man, inspired me deep inside,

You're passion for music is just so grand.

Please focus on the talent God has given you,

For surely i know God will use you mightily.

Please, from the bottom of my heart,

set your eyes on the path God has given you,

A destiny only you can finish,

A responsibility meant to be handled.

Let's just be friends for now,

Friends without any expectations,

Pure and holy in the eyes of God,

that He may bless our friendship greatly.

Right now studying I am in love with,

Being single is what i yearn as of now,

No commitments, no disturbances,

My eyes and heart is looking straight into God's plan.

At times, I admit, I long for a companion,

but its those times into which I choose,

Choose to focus on becoming a better woman,

For the prince that is unknown to me for now.

Please, I pray, do the same,

Be the best man you can be,

for the future princess you want to attain.

I know you can do it, believe it so.

For now, I may look like the princess you long,

but know me first for we will never know.

Feelings are fast to develop,

but wisdom is a must to be learned.

Think, pray about it,

you might be making a wrong choice,

choose beyond your feelings,

Learn and open you heart.

You're a great man i admit,

but you can become the best.

Hold unto God's hands first,

let me go and you'll see what i mean.

Worst of Me

The worst of me has come out of today,

This is a sin that has always been a struggle,

For women like me, who feel insecure at times,

Insecurity that leads great pain to other people.

As James 3:5 says, The mouth is a small thing, 

but what enormous damage it can do.

I've stabbed somebody behind his back,

without him doing no harm to me at all.

It's like this mouth i cannot control,

loudly saying bad things behind his back,

not knowing that he was literally at my back.

I know he's now hurt and in great pain.

An apology is required, but pride is in the way.

I don't know how this day would end,

but surely I am at the verge of my tears,

Knowing what to do, but undecided how.

He smiles and shows that all is fine,

but i know he heard every bit of word i've uttered,

gossiping is a weakness of every woman,

It's something I must learn to destroy deep within.

Right now, my mouth wouldn't open,

I'm scared and deeply depressed,

Because i know i've hurt somebody close,

but worst of all, i know I've caused great pain to God.

Wanting to run to God for forgiveness and wisdom,

but shame and disappointment is written all over my soul,

Confused I am right now, distracted from everything else,

I know i must apologize, but for now i cannot.

My smile has faded for the day,

For I was the cause of a wounded heart,

Who meant no harm to me,

On this bright, supposed to be, happy day...

One of Those Days...

One of those days.

It's one of those days,

where I think of the weirdest things,

My time of slacking around,

and imagining a different kind of life.

It's one of those days...

Where I think that if i was a boy,

I would surely be a handsome one,

Being the prince of a lady in distress,

And rescuing her from her boring life.

It's one of those days...

Where I think if i was a pig,

I would surely have a cute little nose,

oinking with a different tone,

That would surely give a smile to another pig.

It's one of those days...

Where I think if i had my own home,

I'd paint it black and white,

Furnish it with my homemade designs,

And finishing it with my little handmade sculptures.

It's one of those days...

Where I think if i was a teacher,

I would surely inspire my students,

Help them even outside school,

And listen to their pains and joys.

It's one of those days...

Where I imagine if i was a mother,

I'd surely hug and kiss my child like no other,

Showering it with love and tenderness,

Raising my child in God's likeness.

It's one of those days...

Where I imagine if i was a millionaire,

I'd shower my money to our youth ministry,

Giving tons of gifts to homeless children,

And buy my mother her own dream home.

It's one of those days...

Where I think that if i was a famous singer,

I'd sing with gentleness and love,

To relax the listeners and give them a soft touch,

And be able to listen to the voice of God.

It's one of those days...

Where I thank God for creating me the way I am,

and that however God could've created me,

I'd still be the best person i could be,

For God is in me and that's gives out the best in me...

Anywhere, Anytime, Whatever i could've been.

Make it a boy, a pig, teacher, mother, singer, millionaire...

The best of me would still come out,

For my identity is not based on man's opinions,

but it is based on the Word of God, God's amazing love.

Now i see

Now i see.

Things are changing vastly in my life,

My point of view towards life is different from before,

I can see things in a better light now,

I never seem to loose hope, even in hopeless situations.

Now i see.

My life is and will never be the same again,

I am slowly nearing my destiny for God,

His calling I am slowly grasping,

My future unseen yet perfectly planned.

Now i see.

I have to let go of a lot of things,

Things i love i must offer up,

Things that was once important,

Must be given away and shared.

Now i see.

My passion is burning up like fire,

Wanting to burst out in great Joy,

Unprepared but ready to charge,

All for the Glory of God alone.

Now i see.

That i must give my whole life to Him.

My own desires, dreams & decisions,

And open my heart to His bigger plans,

Everything in His perfect time.

Now i see.

He must be on top of every list,

Higher that Him, i must dispose,

To not get distracted by any other thing,

Time to let go of everything.

Now i see.

He's the center of my heart, my life,

My hope, faith and life in His hands i lay down,

Trust and Patience must i learn wholeheartedly,

Doubt and condemnation erased forever.

Now i see.

Clearly that I am called by God,

Every Human being actually is,

It's a matter of laying down our own life,

and carry the cross to where He wants me to go.

Now i see.

I must have a more intimate relationship with Him,

Reading out the Bible audibly from the Heart,

Praying without doubt but faith and honor,

Spending more time with Him without looking at the clock.

Now i see.

My life is beginning to unfold,

My whole being created to glorify Him,

Grace and Love from Him i don't deserve,

Yet gave it to me with no return.

Now i see, Everything is about Loving God. :)