Too Careful

Yes, I like someone.

Yes, I am paranoid.

Yes, I am thinking too much.

Yes, I am too careful.

I don't regret being like this,

It's keeping me safe,

It's keeping me pure in a way;

It's saving me from serious pain.

Liking someone is wonderful,

Tho it is tough as well.

It should be handled with great care,

Or it'll badly get out of hand.

Feelings taken for granted,

Is a very serious offense;

This is to be taken seriously,

Or it'll create serious mistakes.

I value our friendship so much,

that I make sure my guard is up.

I like him but i've got to be careful;

For as they say, Love is patient indeed.

I like him, I am paranoid.

I am too careful coz I like him.

Got to wait for God's Hand to move,

Coz He indeed is writing my story. :)

Here Am I! Send me.

God. .

Here Am I! Send me.

Simple words, but powerful.

Taken for granted, but honored.

When the world is falling,

And everyone's hope is fading,

I will still remain and say,

Here Am I! Send me.

When my dreams & hopes,

Are stepped on and destroyed,

I will still believe and say,

Here Am I!Send me.

When all have betrayed me,

And lost all my dear ones,

I will still stand firm and say,

Here Am I! Send me.

I am nothing, but I am here.

You need me not, but I will serve.

You asked whom You shall send,

Here Am I! Send me.

What does it really mean?

What does it really mean,

When I accept Christ in my life?

What changes can it really do?

What exactly does it do?

I grew up having my life in Him,

Don't really know the other side,

Of not having Him in my life.

But this I clearly know deeply.

That when One has received Him,

All his sins are forgotten.

None of his past can affect him now.

He is given a new clean slate.

Nothing to pay back for,

Nothing to suffer of,

No consequence to face.

It's just plain grace.

It's hard to accept I know.

Living a life full of sin and hatred.

But I myself can't understand,

Why He gave salvation so freely.

Forgiveness given gracefully,

Love given unconditionally,

Hope given whole-heartedly,

Life given in a brand new way.

No matter how others view it,

When encountering Christ,

They are a new being.

Something changes definitely.

Accepting Christ as Savior,

After all those past sins,

Takes away all those sins,

With His sacrificed blood.

Yes, no one can comprehend,

Such grace given to us sinners.

Yes, we don't deserve a bit of it,

But He freely gave it in love. : )

So, what's stopping you from accepting?

When you have nothing to repay.

All you have to do is turn away,

from all your sins and doubts.

It's as easy as that,

and i tell you,

accepting Him?

You won't regret it.

His love is just so amazing,

No more lonely nights,

No more hopeless mornings.

Just plain love and joy. : )

So, what does it really mean?

Accepting Christ in your life,

Reconciles you with Him.

And it's as simple as that : )

Reconciling with Him,

Makes you a new creation,

Old things have passed away,

All things have become new. : )

2 Corinthians 5:17

Calling

I am born at a perfect time.

Breathed life for a reason.

Stepped out for a purpose.

Living for a calling.

I know I am meant for something,

Something that i can't comprehend.

Something I can't clearly see,

But faithfully can hold onto.

I am called for something great.

Even greater than living itself.

I wasn't born to just survive.

I was called to do something great.

But as i grew up,

The world blinded my vision.

Slowly i forgot that i was called.

Began to live life just to survive.

Living just to survive is just empty.

It's living in void and confusion.

Having no sense of worth,

Having nothing to foresee.

Living life in that way,

Is simply as good as dying already.

Life is nothing but a dead end.

Nothing to see, nothing to do.

Meaningless.

Perfect definition of life survival.

So why live for no reason?

It's better to end it now than suffer.

Just when I was about to give up,

To leave this evil world behind,

A tiny spark of a loving memory,

Enlightened my once dead vision.

The One who called me,

Showed Himself in pure love.

Gave me a hand and lifted me up.

And gave me smile of hope.

He said,

"Don't give up just yet."

"You live for a calling.."

"I am with you, You will not fail."

I am indeed called.

Called for a reason, a purpose.

Called to love & live for Him alone,

And that is my highest calling. :)

The Bridge

Today I almost lost someone dear,

Because i wanted to run away.

Just when the tough gets going,

I got myself ready to turn away.

I cried drowning on my bed,

Tried to throw every memory away.

Decided to run and turn away,

from this someone dear to me.

But the funniest thing happened. . .

No matter how i let go of the rope,

If he won't let go of his,

the bridge won't fall off at all.

This bridge of friendship that we have,

That i was oh so ready to leave,

Was not destroyed at all,

Just because he hold onto his end.

The fact that he held on,

means there's hope for both.

We can still fix it and put it up,

despite the brokenness it had.

Just when i was about to give up,

He held stronger than before.

Of course he got his help from above,

to strengthen him on the hold.

This is the beauty of friendship,

that is given from above.

When its about to break off,

Strong bonds would not let it go.

God is indeed the maker of all,

He set this bridge for us,

and He is willing to keep it forever,

No matter how much I break it apart.

Thank you my dear best friend,

for not letting go of your end.

It gave so much hope and joy,

That made me hold on once again. :)

Silent Words

i don't know what to say,

but right now all i can do is cry.

When you needed me the most,

i didn't get to be there.

Such pain you've gone thru,

and yet you thought of me.

I hate you for not telling me a thing,

and i hate myself for not being there.

i hate the fact that i have these rules,

i hate the fact that i didn't get to see,

How much pain you've gone thru,

Just because of some stupid rule.

I wanted to be there for you,

but i wasn't able to be.

You were right in front me,

and i couldn't do a thing.

you were right in front of me,

and i didn't get to see a thing,

i didn't get to see the marks,

that gave you so much pain.

All i could respond was thru tears,

i don't know what to say nor give,

how i wish i can heal your wounds,

or bring back time and give you a hug.

I hate the fact that i wasn't there for you,

i hate the fact that i didn't see a thing.

You've gone thru so much pain,

and no one was there to be with you.

I'm sorry. From the bottom of my heart.

I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry.

I want to say something,

but only tears came out of me.

My Love, My God

You watched me walk alone,
Never took Your eyes away from me,
You never left me as i walked,
Prepared to catch me if I fall.

My Love, My God.
You never left my side.
Even if I thought you did,
You actually never did.

My Love, My God.
Without you my soul is gone,
Without you my life is a wreck,
Without you I am nothing but dust.

My Love, My God.
I missed you so,
Please walk with me,
Side by side forever.

My Love, My God.
You are my first and my last,
Nothing can be compared,
To You in love.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for painting the stars,
For me to see that you care,
That you are watching over me.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for your smile,
That kept me going in life,
That kept me loved .

My Love, My God.
No one can ever take your place,
You belong in my heart alone,
No one else can be there but You.

My Love, My God.
Change my heart and stay inside,
My soul is thirsty for you,
and my body longs for you.

My Love, My God.
Stay inside me forever,
Till the day I see you face to face,
Please take control of my heart.

My Love, My God.
My emotions are all yours,
My thoughts are all yours,
My choices are all yours.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for taking me back,
To your loving arms,
To your wings of grace.

My Love, My God.
Thank you for loving me so. :)