Thursday, November 19, 2009

Counting the days

The bells are ringing,
Homemade cookies baked,
Red and green cards everywhere.
The spirit of Christmas is here.

Christmas is here once again,
Knocking at our doors,
With songs of carols,
Christmas music everywhere.

But why can't i feel it again?
I didn't feel it last year,
Now it's here once more.
Just like the year before.

Busy again before December came,
Been like this three years in a row.
I miss the Christmas spirit in me,
I want it back but don't know how.

I miss counting the days,
Playing Christmas music in full blast.
Wrapping home made gifts,
Writing Christmas letters.

I miss being excited!
I miss the thrill of the months of -er.
I miss decorating any rooms I am in,
I miss christmas fun parties.

I miss Christmas cookies,
I miss writing gift lists.
I miss my spirit...
My spirit of Christmas.

I've been looking for it for long,
It's been three straight years now,
And i can't seem to have it back.
Christmas is an ordinary day for me now.

An ordinary day, or holiday...
Does it even matter?
When I lost the spirit of Christmas.
I lost it... I need it back...

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

No Title

God I know you're there,
I know that you look after me,
With every move i make,
Wether be it big or small.

God You know my worries,
you know that i trust you,
but do i really trust you enough?
Is doubt really that deceiving?

God You know that deep within,
I have full faith in your Word,
But then again doubt went in,
Asking if it was really your Word.

God you know that I love you,
But sometimes i think I've sinned too much,
Yeah, Forgiveness is always there,
But i don't want to hurt someone i love.

God You know my needs,
You know what I need right now,
You know what could calm me,
You know where I am going.

God there's so much doubt in me,
that i want to go crazy already.
I cried to you several times,
I know my tears matched with yours.

God I want to trust you,
Could you please renew my heart?
I want to keep my faith strong,
Strong enough that doubt couldn't creep in.

God I realized that I really am nothing,
Without you I can never live.
I don't know what's up with me.
Maybe all I just want to say is that...

God I need you

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