First Love

I've liked a guy for six years. He was cool and all that, but he was just a friend. I even wondered why I liked him so much all these years, when I don't even know him that well. I guess this is what you call a "crush" just seeing the mere outside and liking it at that point only. I realized lately that this guy I've liked since I was in grade school, was already gone from my heart, my standards went higher as time passed.

Now I see why it is so easy for me to like someone now, how vulnerable my heart really is; coz right now it's kind of empty and it's not that loyal to any human being at all. Anybody could pass by my heart but it takes some more will for someone to open its door. At times I do feel lonely, I feel like I want to talk to someone, go eat with someone, have lunch with someone. I tried it with my closest friends, but still the longing was there. It was different.

I guess this really happens when my brain is inactive. What i mean is, I am not doing anything productive much. I hope soon this loneliness would fade, coz I know it's just a gush of the wind in my life. It won't stay forever for my life goes on to an adventure. I have God and that's what's keeping me from doing the greatest mistake of my life; To be in a relationship with the most selfish reasons.

I know someone is there for me. He's still in an adventure with God like me. I know for sure that I haven't met him yet. I don't know, but I've had dreams that i think gave out signs. I am just so happy that finally, i got to move on. Finally i grew up and realized that the guy i liked for six years is really just a friend to me, he is just like a brother. Yes, we do still talk, but then the awkwardness is gone and i love it.

Wow, so this is how it feels to not like someone at all. I have crushes, but it's a part of being a human, as humans we get attracted to the opposite gender almost everyday! That's how beautiful God's Creation is. :) My heart doesn't like anyone right now, no one is inside but my first love. Actually my first love would never ever leave my heart that's for sure.

I am so happy that my heart is so free now, it feels so different. I see people on a different perspective. I am loving life. Though i know that i must protect my heart for sure, coz there would be people who'd pass by my heart and try to knock its door by force. I am just so happy my first love is guarding my heart.

Who's my first love? Of course, the Artist who created me :)

Tiny kindness, Huge happiness

I went to volunteer in a radio station... Then I went on time but apparently, the boss was having a meeting..>_<

And i don't like waiting for so long.. so i was bored so i did so many things to keep myself active...^^ Until i was really bored..i was making weird sounds already... So i was kind of annoyed coz i wasnt doing anything...

Finally the boss's meeting was done! So we got to talk, and i met this guy who was nice and he's older than me, he was a kuya to me. Then the boss asked us to bring in some chairs...So i brought mine, then i was wondering why this guy that i met was bringing two chairs... I didn't really mind so i just went in with my chair...To know that the chair he brought was for me! I stood there for awhile and didn't know what to do.. In the end i just sat on the chair i brought in beside the 'supposedly chair for me'.

I was happy for his care. He was such a gentleman, and that made me happy... Knowing that there are still guys out there who value the respect women really needs... It really made my day, even if i was at the tip of getting depressed...

His gentlemanliness, drove away the annoyance in my heart. He may not know it, but he has blessed me by simply showing that small act of kindness...^^