Dreams

What does it really take,

To get a hold of your dreams?

To reach it, to hold it, to live it.

What does it really take?

Well, let me tell you,

based on the life that i live,

The life I live in which,

I yearn to grab my dream.

It takes away the norm out of you,

It may seem easy and fast,

But believe me,

It takes more than you can imagine.

If you have a truck of friends,

Dreams will take them one by one,

And leave you a sack of them instead,

Or no, Maybe just a cup.

If you have a comfortable life,

Be sure to know what to keep,

Dreams will take them fast,

And can't take them back.

If you have someone special,

Be sure that he understands you.

Or have the same dream likes yours,

Coz if not, misunderstandings are sure to come.

If you love your friends,

More than your family,

You're taking a huge risk here.

Coz in the end, family is the ones that stay.

If you walk in silver and gold,

Be prepared to walk in burning coals,

Or even broken glasses.

Be prepared do not be reckless.

If you think you could reach it alone,

Give up now coz you'll end up sad.

Reaching dreams ain't just about holding 'em,

It's more than that.

If you think dreams is all that matters,

You might live a very lonesome life.

Never ever step on someone else,

To just get a hold of your dreams.

It's more than the thought of reaching it.

It's the journey that you would take.

It's the ups and downs.

It's the wounds, and the scars, and the tears.

Getting there ain't the end of the road,

It's the beginning of a new path.

Never think that when you get there,

Everything would be a bliss.

Believe me, it'll get tougher and tougher.

Dreams aren't all sparkly and flashy,

It's a responsibility that can drag you down.

Dreams are not happily ever afters.

But one thing i can assure you,

Your Dreams can make a difference,

You dream not for yourself,

But for the people around you.

The weak, the lonely, the tired ones.

They need your dreams to keep them breathing,

Whatever your dreams are,

It'll make a change.

It's your choice if it'll be for good or bad,

But it'll make a change nonetheless.

Grasp what I am saying here,

Your dreams are not for yourself.

Be sure to keep yourself sane.

Keep your feet on the ground,

and never loose faith.

Keep your eyes ahead.

One advice from a dear ol' pal.

There's only one thing that keeps me sane,

One thing that keeps me aiming high,

No matter how i was dragged down,

One thing that kept me happy,

Despite all the pressure and pain.

One thing that kept my dreams alive,

Despite the plans of others to destroy it.

One thing.

And that is Prayers.

Yes. YOu heard me right. Prayers.

Nothing else but prayers.

If there is one thing that can keep you sane,

From this journey of yours to your dreams,

It is the Creator of that dream.

Take it from me.

From a dreamer who've let go of so many things,

Just for the sake of her dreams,

To make a change in this place we're living in,

In this temporary world.

❤

Reaching my Dreams for yours

I have a dream

And that is for you to reach your dream

Confusing I am to you right now,

But that's the truth, it is my dream.

I dream for you to reach your dream,

and ignite the passion in your heart,

I know you couldn't do it alone,

For I myself couldn't do it alone as well.

I dream for you to never loose hope,

That in every dream is a future unseen.

A future we may never know for sure,

But would surely change history I know.

Each of us has a dream of our own,

Some are unpleasant but most are good.

Each dream needs guidance for sure,

And that is my dream to guide you to yours.

I want to reach you as far as I could,

As far as reaching to your home.

I want to encourage you in every way,

That you may see the importance of your dream.

All dreams have a purpose of their own,

It is in your hands if you'll use it for good or not.

This is my calling this is my dream,

To help you reach your dream for good.

Please pray for me I plead,

I want to reach you as soon as i can,

I know it seems impossible for now,

But nothing is impossible through my God.

Even when everybody says I can't.

I will choose to say "I can!"

Coz Nobody could step on this dream i have,

Unless I allow them to crush this hope in me.

I know I can reach you wherever you are,

It's just a matter of perseverance and faith.

Nobody said it would be an easy task,

But that's the thrill of reaching a dream!

So just wait for me my friend,

I will help you ignite that passion in you.

Just keep on holding and never let go,

Together we will make your dreams come true!

Boys?

Right now, i don't want any guys to interfere in my dreams, i don't want anyone to court me, nor even express their feelings to me! o.o

I want to focus on God's calling for me, i don't want to lose my momentum, i don't want to find my worth in man's eyes but in God's. I have so much to learn, and i want to learn it with God alone. No man is accepted in my heart for now, it is not yet my time and i don't want to fall into any temptation.

I know there are times that i do want to have a special someone, but i always end up fighting against it coz its not yet my time..

Right now, i do have my eyes on someone, but i cannot imagine myself to be with him for a lifetime...:) i guess its a woman's nature to like the opposite gender indefinitely until the time she gets married. 

This guy i've known since the day i transferred here in davao, and had been a huge help to me and an awesome friend. :) He did become my school mate and org. mate...:D till now, he's my crush, but it won't go any further. I want to stay liking him, coz i know its safe, for he likes someone else..:D it'll keep me single and not focused on him nor to any relationships.

Boys? I like them, i can't live without having someone, but for now, it's just not the time, coz if he'll enter my life now, surely my dreams will be crushed into pieces.

18th Birthday

When i was 13 and 16 i always had the huge gut that when i turn 18 something amazing will happen. I actually thought it was about my Manga, that finally i'd be able to publish it on my 18th birthday (it's was my dream). 

But then the amazing thing i thought would happened turned out to be a life changing experience.

Late las year, i stumbled upon YWAM, a missionary school, eventually they had a college there where the course i wanted was present. So without any hesitations, i quit my dream school in my country and left my social life there. 

Six months... (my first subject for my course) that was the best part of my life. I was able to learn so much about God and i was able to go to Hong kong and Vietnam, i was able to go to another country, that was just a dream before. After i graduated on my first subject, so many things happened, my debut, my 18th birthday, last May 2, happened. 

It got me to thinking, i did not reach MY dream to publish my manga on my debut, but GOD's dream went in, and i tell ya, it's the dream i can't even imagine myself. This year so many things happened. My 18th year wasn't the way i wanted it to be, it was FAR more better than what i planned it to be. Until today, so many things are changing, surely, i am becoming a better woman for God. 

My 18th year hasn't ended, and i'm so excited of what's ahead even if i can't see it myself. everything was on God's perfect timing, and surely His Ways are much more better than mine. :)

My life made a HUGE turn on my 18th year, God never forgot me, God never gave up on me. His love and grace is unexplainable, that i won't even bother to explain, for it'll take a lifetime for me to explain it...:D

My 18th year is the BEST year of my life, a memorable and faith deepening life.

Life Interviews

Questions From "The Dream Giver" by Bruce Wilkinson 

Think back what you wanted to do while you were growing up and state why.

- I wanted to be a teacher ever since i was a kid. I have to admit I've always loved the idea of being superior, but then as i grew up, it began to change. I began to realize that i wanted to be a teacher, because i wanted to give hope. I wanted to inspire teenagers, i wanted to come into their lives and help them pursue their dreams. I wanted to be their friend, their listener. I wanted teenagers to reach their fullest potential. I wanted teenagers to see what it really means when adults say "They're the future". I've and will always want to see teenagers show their real smiles. Though, most of all, i want them to meet my source of inspiration, my source of hope and that is my Savior, Jesus.

-As i grew older i began to change whom i want to be, I want to be a singer. Not just any ordinary singer, I want to be a Worship Leader. I want to inspire people through my singing. I want God to use my mellow singing as an instrument to talk to His children. I have a very soft and mellow voice, i've always wanted it that way, for it relaxes people and i know that when one person is relaxed, their mind is at peace, thus letting them hear God clearly. I want to write songs that would bring teenagers back to God. I want to sing to most beautiful tone that i could release that presents how beautiful God is. 

- Later on i found one more thing that i want to be. I want to be an animator and a cosplayer. I want to use this medium to attract teenagers to read or watch my story. My story about people's testimonies about God, my story about my life with God, and Jesus' story. My story full that is full of insights, but most of all, God's story in disguise as mine. I wanted to cosplay with the same reason, to attract teenagers; or more likely teenagers too addicted to anime. There are some teenagers out there who love anime so much that they make their own world in their own mind. People call them weird or funny, but in reality they're just lost or different. Why do i know this? Coz i was one of them before. If i could only talk to them i know they'd listen, but they won't listen unless you know their world or act like one from their world.

In the end i came to realize that i may have four different dreams, but they only lead to one calling. A heart for the Youth.

What have I always been good at?

- Arts and Music. I have a passion for singing and drawing. I could create something wonderful from trash. I could put my wild imaginations on pen and ink, and even pictures and colors. I could love someone without expecting that someone to love me back. I could make people smile through being me.. ^_^

What needs do i care about most?

- Teenagers unable to be loved or unable to reach their dreams. Teenagers unable to smile or laugh. Teenagers who keeps on crying. Teenagers who has a deep longing. Teenagers who seem lost. Fatherless teenagers( I am a daddy's girl ). 

Who do i admire most?

-  A youth pastor i once had, who spoke with passion and wisdom that led me into tears the very time she began to speak up to the point she prayed as she ended her sermon. My Father who has so much wisdom that gave answers to the questions of a lot of lost teenagers.

What makes me most fulfilled?

- When i know that God used me to prevent or stop a teenager from crying; and see them give out a smile in different ways.

What do i love to do most?

- I love to sing soft and mellow music, i love to write, i love to do anything crafty from edible to inedible, i love making other people smile, i love loving someone, i love teenagers, i love to make something beautiful from trash. I love encouraging people, i love hugging people, i love making others feel good about themselves. I love excitement and smiles.

What have i felt called to do?

- To reach out to broken Teenagers/Youth.

What legacy would i want to leave for my children and grandchildren?

- That God was able to make an animation or song that saved teenager's souls through my talents.