STOP!

Busy there, busy here,

Busy now, Busy later.

It's a never ending cycle.

Too much need, to much work.

Where is the beauty of life,

It is never found no more,

when everything is just so fast,

Nothing is just like before.

Stop!

Take a bit of a moment,

to pause in this fast paced life,

You have to want to pause,

To see life in a better view.

It's worth the pause and miss out some,

that never pause and miss out all,

Life isn't all about busyness,

Take a pause and you'll see what i mean.

When you take a pause, to stop

You're giving yourself a precious gift,

the gift of life that was meant for you,

So don't waste it and open it.

Life isn't all about work,

Sometimes you just have to pause,

to see the beauty of what you've done.

Being busy ain't cool, so Stop! you need it the most.

Now i see

Now i see.

Things are changing vastly in my life,

My point of view towards life is different from before,

I can see things in a better light now,

I never seem to loose hope, even in hopeless situations.

Now i see.

My life is and will never be the same again,

I am slowly nearing my destiny for God,

His calling I am slowly grasping,

My future unseen yet perfectly planned.

Now i see.

I have to let go of a lot of things,

Things i love i must offer up,

Things that was once important,

Must be given away and shared.

Now i see.

My passion is burning up like fire,

Wanting to burst out in great Joy,

Unprepared but ready to charge,

All for the Glory of God alone.

Now i see.

That i must give my whole life to Him.

My own desires, dreams & decisions,

And open my heart to His bigger plans,

Everything in His perfect time.

Now i see.

He must be on top of every list,

Higher that Him, i must dispose,

To not get distracted by any other thing,

Time to let go of everything.

Now i see.

He's the center of my heart, my life,

My hope, faith and life in His hands i lay down,

Trust and Patience must i learn wholeheartedly,

Doubt and condemnation erased forever.

Now i see.

Clearly that I am called by God,

Every Human being actually is,

It's a matter of laying down our own life,

and carry the cross to where He wants me to go.

Now i see.

I must have a more intimate relationship with Him,

Reading out the Bible audibly from the Heart,

Praying without doubt but faith and honor,

Spending more time with Him without looking at the clock.

Now i see.

My life is beginning to unfold,

My whole being created to glorify Him,

Grace and Love from Him i don't deserve,

Yet gave it to me with no return.

Now i see, Everything is about Loving God. :)

18th Birthday

When i was 13 and 16 i always had the huge gut that when i turn 18 something amazing will happen. I actually thought it was about my Manga, that finally i'd be able to publish it on my 18th birthday (it's was my dream). 

But then the amazing thing i thought would happened turned out to be a life changing experience.

Late las year, i stumbled upon YWAM, a missionary school, eventually they had a college there where the course i wanted was present. So without any hesitations, i quit my dream school in my country and left my social life there. 

Six months... (my first subject for my course) that was the best part of my life. I was able to learn so much about God and i was able to go to Hong kong and Vietnam, i was able to go to another country, that was just a dream before. After i graduated on my first subject, so many things happened, my debut, my 18th birthday, last May 2, happened. 

It got me to thinking, i did not reach MY dream to publish my manga on my debut, but GOD's dream went in, and i tell ya, it's the dream i can't even imagine myself. This year so many things happened. My 18th year wasn't the way i wanted it to be, it was FAR more better than what i planned it to be. Until today, so many things are changing, surely, i am becoming a better woman for God. 

My 18th year hasn't ended, and i'm so excited of what's ahead even if i can't see it myself. everything was on God's perfect timing, and surely His Ways are much more better than mine. :)

My life made a HUGE turn on my 18th year, God never forgot me, God never gave up on me. His love and grace is unexplainable, that i won't even bother to explain, for it'll take a lifetime for me to explain it...:D

My 18th year is the BEST year of my life, a memorable and faith deepening life.

Outside My Window...

Recenlty God has proven Himself real to me, real meaning that He IS listening to me... :) Let's just say i prayed a prayer and He answered it without me even praying about it... :)

I just know my life is changing step by step... Slowly He is bringing excitement and fun into my life. I know slowly I am reaching His purpose in my life... He's actually strengthening my faith right now, and my my my, it is a very hard and challenging stage of my life...o.o....

Hmmm... I was just imagining that behind my windows... outside my windows... There's a huge world out there, waiting for me to discover it. Waiting for me to discover the secrets and mysteries of life. Surely God created the Heavens and the earth with great beauty and mystery, and imagine, being able to uncover a secret God has placed on this very land i am living in...

I want to go out of my window and see the world the way God sees it... :) Surely my life would be a living adventure every single day, every single time i wake up... :D

But then again, everything starts at home. So until i find home an exciting place to be in, i would never see the world as exciting as it should look like... :) For God works at home, where my family is... :D

Love God, Love your home, Love your family, and surely you'll love life.